June 16, 2025 • 49 mins
Parenting seven kids at home with the paparazzi parked outside your home can't be easy, but Hilaria Baldwin makes it look fun.
Oliver bonds with the headline-making wife of actor Alec Baldwin fresh off their reality show 'The Baldwins.'
Hear what she says saved their family, finding her voice after tragedy, and filming the reality of being a Baldwin!
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Speaker 1 (00:05):
Hi.
Speaker 2 (00:05):
I am Kate Hudson and my name is Oliver Hudson.
Speaker 3 (00:08):
We wanted to do something that highlighted our.
Speaker 2 (00:11):
Relationship and what it's like to be siblings.
Speaker 3 (00:19):
We are a.
Speaker 4 (00:19):
Sibling Railvalry No, no, sibling, val don't do that with
your mouth, Vely.
Speaker 2 (00:33):
That's good.
Speaker 1 (00:38):
It's Oliver Hudson here, solo mission, me and me and me,
not me myself, and i'd me me me.
Speaker 2 (00:47):
I need to do more me me me because I
I don't take enough care of myself. I need to
go me me, me, me me. You know what.
Speaker 1 (00:54):
I can do this whole fucking intro right now and
do a whole thing. But we have a guest waiting
in the waiting room and I need to get to
her because I'm excited to have conversations and talk about
life and bigger things and unscripted shows with husbands and
books and let's get into it.
Speaker 2 (01:15):
Please bring on missus Baldwin, Larry Baldmin.
Speaker 1 (01:19):
Hello, how are you. I'm good, I'm sorry, I'm late,
that's okay. I did a whole panel for my gut
health for you know, they did blood, they did this,
they did that. Unfortunately it was stool. I mean it
was everything. So I had a consultation after the fact
(01:40):
to go over every piece of my body, scared, hoping
that there wasn't some shit that is going to you.
Speaker 2 (01:47):
Know, I'm going to not have much longer to live.
But so I was going through the whole process and
it was very interesting.
Speaker 3 (01:56):
It can be interesting. That kind of thing always scares me.
Speaker 5 (01:59):
Did you see you seeing me like full body scan
doing in Europe?
Speaker 2 (02:05):
Yeah, well there's the pre nuvo stuff too.
Speaker 5 (02:08):
I mean I don't know all the names, but I
was looking at this and I was like, you know what,
this would probably terrify me. But they stay within like
an hour or something like that. You know so much
about your.
Speaker 2 (02:16):
Yeah, yeah, no, I did it.
Speaker 1 (02:18):
I did a full body scan I think last year,
and uh yeah. Then you sit down with the technician
and the lead up is scary as shit.
Speaker 2 (02:29):
You're just thinking, okay, you know any.
Speaker 3 (02:32):
Any sort of health scarceuse. We all have like little
you know, Yeah, I.
Speaker 5 (02:36):
Feel like we all have our things, and especially once
you at least for women, once we have kids, there's
not only things for us, but then there's things for
the kids too, and it's all scary. The best doctors
are people calling you this, nurses, whoever's calling to get
the result.
Speaker 3 (02:53):
They will just like pick up the phone. They're like,
everything's fine.
Speaker 2 (02:56):
Yeah, I'm good, thank you.
Speaker 3 (02:58):
No, I know, I know, don't ask me how I'm doing. Nothing,
just everything is fine.
Speaker 2 (03:02):
You're yes, exactly, get into it. I love that.
Speaker 1 (03:06):
I know, I totally agree. I mean, because you're just
waiting for some sort of a shoe to drop and
then the doctor's not calling you after you've done your
blood work and whatever, and oh my god, something's wrong.
And you know, I mean I have anxiety around health
for sure.
Speaker 5 (03:21):
Very It's like, you know, we we so much focus
on all these material things and stresses and what people
think and stuff like that, and ultimately our health is
number one. But you know, I even say with you know,
the way that we've learned to communicate in with my
friends and my husband and and my family is I'm like,
(03:42):
start at the end and then let's.
Speaker 3 (03:45):
Get to the story.
Speaker 5 (03:46):
So, you know, my my son recently broke his collar
book and I wasn't there.
Speaker 3 (03:50):
So if we start with.
Speaker 5 (03:52):
Okay, Romeo is having X Y Z, and then we
can go back, just you know, once you start it
from the beginning, and you're like you're guessing and guessing.
Speaker 3 (04:00):
And guessing, like what's happened? And now go back and learn.
Speaker 5 (04:04):
And I've that's actually helped me tremendously with anxiety because
you just get there.
Speaker 3 (04:08):
There's no lead up there.
Speaker 2 (04:10):
That's great. Yeah, yeah, yeah, no, I like that. Yeah.
Speaker 1 (04:13):
It's like when you get a call from the school.
But just happened fucking too many times with my insane children,
although they're great kids that get straight a's and they're amazing.
So you get that call from the from the school
and immediately you see the school on the on the
ID and you.
Speaker 2 (04:31):
Pick it up and the first thing they say is
why is my one of my sons Wilder? He goes
Wilder is fine.
Speaker 5 (04:36):
Okay, good, get to the end and then like what
we have to deal with? No, that's good for me.
It was when the nurse calls. So I have six
in the same school, and so the nurse calls and
she's like.
Speaker 3 (04:50):
I'm like, which one is it here? And I'm like, great, yeah.
Speaker 2 (04:58):
No, I I get I know.
Speaker 1 (05:00):
And as when I had kids, I have three kids.
I have to say that this fear of death honestly
is gotten worse and it and it's not even a
selfish thing. It's more about my children, you know what
I mean, Like I go to this place of I
need to be here for them to continue on, you know,
(05:26):
imparting whatever wisdom or insanity.
Speaker 2 (05:29):
That I'm going to give them.
Speaker 1 (05:30):
But you know, I think that that is an issue
and I wish. I don't think you can truly truly
live until you have sort of gotten over this fear
of death. You know, there's liberation there.
Speaker 5 (05:43):
Yeah, no, it's I think I bring my kids to
cemeteries a lot. It was, and I feel like and
first of all, I do, I feel very much like
you do. It's see, you know, it's it's once you
become a parent. I think that how fragile life can is,
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can be very you know, it becomes very Uh it
comes into my fears all the time. But I I
really feel like, you know, we spend time in cemeteries
and you know, everything from like the history of it,
and just also acknowledging like.
Speaker 3 (06:25):
This is part of life.
Speaker 5 (06:26):
You know, this is part of life, and there's a
tremendous amount of peace there as well, and not being afraid,
you know, if not of death, but of people who
have died, you know, and because I don't want anyone
to be afraid of me when I die, so I
try to have that kind of connection with them.
Speaker 3 (06:45):
But no, I mean, this is the this is the
human the human thing.
Speaker 2 (06:50):
Do you have fears and anxieties? You know?
Speaker 1 (06:52):
I mean, is this part of your of your life?
Is managing yourself to be the best for your kids
and your husband?
Speaker 5 (07:01):
I mean, yeah, I mean I so I turned forty
one this year, and I feel like, for what I
hear from other women, I feel like forty is a
big growing up phase in life. You know, I've had
my kids, I doubt I'll have any more, and I
have also not only do I have a lot of kids,
but I've been thrust into many experiences in life that.
Speaker 3 (07:27):
I had zero preparation for.
Speaker 5 (07:29):
I don't know if anyone would and and so yeah, no,
I mean it's definitely the fears of am I able
to do this? Am I good enough for this? You
know the title of my book, where's a manual for this?
Manuals not included? Like kids said anyone? And you know,
who can I call to get advice for this? And
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you know there isn't anyone. But that's where I think,
you know, my my yoga practice, breathing, running, gratitude. I've
I've always been just a very grateful person anytime things
are going bad, and you know, somebody came up with
you know it came and.
Speaker 3 (08:06):
Told me about toxic Oh don't be so toxic positive.
Speaker 5 (08:08):
And I'm like, if I'm not positive somewhere or find
beauty somewhere, it's just going to get so.
Speaker 3 (08:13):
Dark, you know.
Speaker 5 (08:14):
So I try to cling onto some sort of beauty
and positivity wherever I can find it. So yeah, no,
I mean, it's definitely, it's definitely there. But then I
also think about the perspective and the experience that I
want my kids to remember when they're in their twenties
and thirties and beon.
Speaker 3 (08:31):
And think how was my mom? How was my childhood?
Speaker 5 (08:35):
All feign happiness sometimes just because I want them to
feel that joy, and they're very smarting sometimes were like.
Speaker 2 (08:41):
Mm oh yeah, but at least oh no, they know,
they know, they know they're there.
Speaker 1 (08:48):
Their intuition is so strong and spot on, and they
feel so much, and they pay attention way more than
we think that they're paying attention. My kids will sometimes
my daughter, what's wrong, Dad. I'm like, how did you know?
Speaker 2 (09:07):
You know what I mean? Like, they can feel that that.
Speaker 1 (09:10):
Energy, and I guess sometimes yeah, you got to put
on the good face and then sometimes you just got
to say yeah, you know, yeah I'm not good right now,
and that's okay.
Speaker 3 (09:19):
Yeah. I'm a big believer in a healthy dose of.
Speaker 5 (09:24):
That, because I think by not telling them you question
their sense of feeling and their own intuition. But we
talk a lot in our family as well about that
your feelings can lie to you, which I didn't grow up.
Everything is like, oh, we trust your feelings, trust you're good.
Sometimes your feelings are anxiety and they're not true. Yes,
(09:46):
sometimes your feelings are I feel like a horrible piece
of it today and this is just just so awful
and I'm the stupidest.
Speaker 3 (09:53):
And that's not a true feeling.
Speaker 5 (09:55):
Yeah, you know, you can validate that where that is
coming from, and that that is, you know, an anxiet,
But that's an anxiety.
Speaker 3 (10:01):
That's not a true feeling.
Speaker 5 (10:03):
And so I talk about that with my kids as well,
because ultimately what we want them to become is good
problem solvers. If they can solve you know, what, what
do I want to do with my life, what makes
me happy?
Speaker 3 (10:15):
Who are good people to surround myself with?
Speaker 5 (10:18):
You know? How How can I treat other people and
be a good citizen of this world? Then we're doing
a really good job.
Speaker 2 (10:25):
I think as parents, that's what we try, that's what
that's what we strive for, you know. And we all
do it differently, which is so interesting as well. All
parents do it differently.
Speaker 1 (10:33):
There is no Well it's interesting you know about your book,
you know, using the word manual, right, because there is
no manual, I mean. And I raise my kids so
differently than my sister does. And they're all great kids,
you know, but I have different theories and I have
(10:55):
different instincts than you might, and that Kate might, or
than anyone might, right, yeah, you know, And it's just
something And it's not about if we're fucking them up.
Speaker 2 (11:05):
I think it's just to what degree, you know what
I mean, we are screwing them up one way or another.
It's just part of the life, you know, Right.
Speaker 5 (11:13):
Well you might find as well that you know, with
your children, they're all so different, so you're going to
have to parent each one of them. Yes, you know,
I have a big brother and I look up to him,
and I think that he's since this is a sibling show,
since I think like.
Speaker 3 (11:27):
The world of him.
Speaker 5 (11:28):
And he has a my nephew who's twenty, and he
is just like such a good dad, and I got
so inspired by how he parents because it's, you know,
really about being together and connection. And you know, my
nephew is really close to him, like sleep in bed
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in the bed with him, so you know, everybody's judging,
and my brother's like, it's not going to sleep in
bed with me when he's in college, you know. And
it's like he understood that these so he taught me
a lot about phases and you know, just kind of
really being present for the individual child that you have.
And so I'm different with in some ways. With all
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of my kids, I've had to hone in.
Speaker 2 (12:15):
And you know, just like hell yeah, all without a doubt.
I mean, I would do it.
Speaker 1 (12:19):
My wife and I talk about it all the time,
how differently we would have done it with our first kid,
knowing what.
Speaker 2 (12:23):
We know now.
Speaker 1 (12:24):
I mean, it's night and day from one, number one
to number three, and you got number one to number seven.
So I'm sure there was a lot of evolution from
one to seven.
Speaker 5 (12:34):
Yeah, no, no, no, and that but that's the thing,
is like teaching our kids that we are evolving and
we are, you know, imperfect. I was reading a something
about how people who have good relationships with their parents
as adults and what their parents did well as children
when they were children, and it was about saying that
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you're sorry and admitting that when they were wrong and fallible.
And I think that that's one of the big you
know keys. I try to include my kids in an
empowering way in their growth. So you know, yes, they
have to do their home, Yes they have to eat
their vegetabs, Yes they.
Speaker 3 (13:13):
Have to go to bed.
Speaker 5 (13:13):
All of these there are rules, trust me, there are rules.
But the more that I can encourage them to feel
a purpose in their own growth and the why why
and taking the time even when I'm hearing seven whys
at the same time about seven different completely different subjects
and they're yelling at me at the same time. So
you can imagine a spinner. Not only I have seven,
I have seven very close together. Yeah, but that's something
(13:37):
that you know, hopefully, well, hopefully it will turn out well.
Speaker 3 (13:41):
For our relationship.
Speaker 1 (13:42):
Yeah, and so you have you have one sibling A
one sibling. Yeah, and so take us back, take us back.
Speaker 2 (13:50):
Where were you? Where were you born? Where did you
grow up?
Speaker 1 (13:54):
So?
Speaker 3 (13:54):
I'm born in Boston.
Speaker 5 (13:55):
My whole family lives in Spain, which was a big
part of my childhood as well. Is where my whole
family lives and we Yeah, my brother lives there. Oh,
he's lived there most of his life, and I've lived
here mostly.
Speaker 2 (14:11):
Did you live in Boston?
Speaker 3 (14:13):
I live in Boston, Boston yea yeah, yeah, yeah, Well.
Speaker 2 (14:16):
That's my my in law. So my wife grew up.
Speaker 1 (14:19):
They grew up in Boston, my in laws, like we
were in Brockton, and then my wife was in Long Meadow,
which is just uh, I know it. Yeah, and then
now we go to the cake.
Speaker 2 (14:29):
We go to Falma every summer for three weeks.
Speaker 3 (14:31):
But where are you? Where are you located now?
Speaker 2 (14:33):
I'm in La born and raised La.
Speaker 3 (14:35):
Born and raised in La. And are you how is
everything there?
Speaker 2 (14:38):
It was crazy?
Speaker 1 (14:39):
Yeah, the fires were definitely affected us. One of my
brother's houses went down, so now it sucks. Then my parents, Kate, myself,
our houses were not directly affected, but some smoke damage
and stuff like that.
Speaker 3 (14:55):
You guys all live very near each other.
Speaker 2 (14:56):
Yeah, we're all sort of eight ten minutes away everybody.
I love that.
Speaker 3 (15:00):
That's so nice.
Speaker 5 (15:01):
I tell that to my my kids, and they're having
conversation this morning because my my son, my oldest son,
went away to like this. I don't know if your
kids did, like a two day you go away with
your your class, like I.
Speaker 3 (15:13):
Can't play bumps and stuff like that. And I was
a wreck. And it's so weird because I have seven kids,
and you would think that like six kids are.
Speaker 5 (15:21):
Still like noisy, and it's like so quiet, even the
one and he's even like one and more quiet of
the bunch.
Speaker 2 (15:27):
Yeah, it was just such a.
Speaker 5 (15:28):
Weird changing the dynamic. And he came back yesterday and
I said to him, I said, you know that's it.
All of you guys are going to live inn account
compounds because we're all going to live with me forever.
Speaker 2 (15:37):
I love that, No, I know.
Speaker 1 (15:39):
I mean, and only do you truly understand the love
that your parents have for you once you have your
own children. You know, when we grow up and you
know your parents are loving on you, and they're concerned
about you, and and they just want you to sort
of be good human beings and and be well off
(16:01):
and be positive and oh mom, I got it, I
got it. And then when you have children and then
you are in their shoes. The appreciation now that I
have for my parents, you know, the love that has
deepened for them once I've had my kids, is astronomical
because I understand it now. I understand that you love
so hard.
Speaker 2 (16:20):
That you don't even know what to do with it, right,
you know what I mean?
Speaker 5 (16:24):
Also just you know, I mean I talk about, you know,
being fallible and just not understanding what to do. And
I always try to think about, you know, my parents,
my friend's parents, when we're at my friends and I,
you know, everybody off conversations and everything, and I think,
you know.
Speaker 3 (16:43):
If I don't, none of us know what we're doing.
Most of the time, we're trying, we're trying our best.
Speaker 5 (16:49):
And so I think becoming a parent is also a
really good dose of, you know, looking back and thinking, wow,
my parents were in their twenties and thirties and forties
and I and beyond hopefully you know, and and you
know the same thing like when I look at some
of these very difficult experiences I've had, I hope my
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kids just.
Speaker 3 (17:11):
Know that I was trying my best, and I hope.
Speaker 5 (17:14):
That they know that there was no manual and in
the end, I just wanted everybody to be okay, and
and you know, it's a little bit of you know,
trial and error. I have a story in the book
we had, I think on our show. Yeah, I was
on our show as well about how you know I
have we have paparazzi downstairs sometimes and I'm always trying
(17:38):
to take care of Alec and try to get them
out of the house without these you know, because they're
the name of the games.
Speaker 3 (17:44):
They don't care what they say. They're just trying to
get a reaction at it.
Speaker 5 (17:48):
And I had one morning where I was like all
out of like all my tricks and I don't know
how these things come to mind, but I just come
up with like the craziest stuff to do sometimes and
I'm like crazy enough to try it. So I was like,
you know what, I don't know what's doing. It's so
cold outside. I go upstairs and sad, I'm gonna put
something crazy on and then I'm gonna try to lead
(18:09):
lure them away from the house and then get an
uber to come at the same time so they don't
recognize our car and Alec can go in and they
will be here. And so I put on fishnets and
this tinle skirt and it's like like I look ridiculous,
but she gets it's like eleven side and freezing, and
I'm walking in very slowly and pretends me on the
phone and I'm walking, walking, walking to the corner and
(18:29):
you and sure enough they start following me, and I'm like,
this is like thirty percent chance of working.
Speaker 3 (18:34):
Yeah, And they follow me.
Speaker 5 (18:35):
And they're taking pictures and I kind of turn around
and I'm gazing at the door and see.
Speaker 3 (18:39):
Alec like dirt into a car and drive away, and
I just like turned around and it was like.
Speaker 5 (18:45):
I mean, in some ways like get leaning into trying
to find silly ways like pressful situations.
Speaker 3 (18:51):
But he and then of course they love to like
call me a slug and stuff like that.
Speaker 5 (18:55):
It's like, look, she just wanted to I'm like, well,
now I can tell you what I was doing.
Speaker 2 (19:01):
Yeah, you guys, you made a game. You made a
game out it made a game out of it.
Speaker 5 (19:06):
And so there's times, by the way, I try these
things and sometimes it doesn't go well either, so you know,
or I don't win, but that was one where I went.
But again, that's like an example of like, I hope
people look back and be like, you know what, she's crazy,
but she's trying her very best.
Speaker 2 (19:21):
Oh yeah, yeah.
Speaker 1 (19:22):
And by the way, you know, because it was a
different time obviously then, but I grew up with famous parents,
so I had to deal with paparazzi and you know,
people in general, fans in general coming up to my
mom and Kurt and whatever that meant to me and
felt to me as a young kid might have been irrational,
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but there were my feelings where I just didn't want
people invading our space and it gave me sort of
just angry feelings a lot of the time. And it's
a thing that you have to navigate as parents, especially
now in the spotlight, right, So how do you guys
deal with that, talk to your kids about it, you know,
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or is it just kind of hey, guys, this is
what it is inside our four walls, it's all. It
is what it is, and when we go outside, you know, sorry,
not sorry, but this is our fucking life.
Speaker 5 (20:18):
Yeah, I mean, I think it's after I answer, I'd
love to get your opinions. You lived it as a child,
and I not grow up as a famous person, So
I have no idea what I'm doing with famous parents.
Speaker 3 (20:32):
But my I think it depends on what's going on.
Speaker 5 (20:37):
And I think because these past few years have been
so difficult, we've a lot of the attention that is
coming at us. It was very, very aggressive because it
entered into a new realm where there was a feeling
of entitlement to go another step of the right relation,
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you know, to really like is it all of it
is a violation? Taking a picture without somebody's consent is
a violation, right, But then it gets to be like
we're like shoving you violations, you know what I mean.
And and so with the kids, you know, if they're
far away, we kind of like talk about it and
bothers them because they see it bothers us, and that's
our fault, right we should One of the things where
(21:22):
I've made a mistake is I should just take a
deep breath and that like burning sort of like why
are you doing this to me? Saying I need to
learn how to calm down. So that's what I'm working
on in like.
Speaker 1 (21:34):
My therapy, in you, in your therapy and your meditation,
and your journaling and breath in your wellness journey exactly.
Speaker 5 (21:43):
And it's another step when they're like streaming stuff at
us that the kids are there, like you know that
that kind of thing, and there's no level of humanity.
Speaker 3 (21:50):
I'll say them like, you know my kids, don't they hear, no,
we don't care. They say, I don't care about your kids.
Speaker 5 (21:55):
They will actually say it, and then they cut that
part out when they when they sell. So I think
some of it is explaining the business, but I think
it goes back to what you were saying before.
Speaker 3 (22:04):
Kids are smart. Kids are smart. They see things, you know.
Speaker 5 (22:08):
I mean, how many kids of famous parents or famous
kids you see them like giving the middle.
Speaker 3 (22:13):
Finger to like a paparazzi or something.
Speaker 5 (22:15):
I have. My kids definitely happen, I'm like, but out
of them, they feel my boys. I have four boys,
and it is so funny how they feel. You know,
they're nine, eight, six, and four and they feel very
protective over their parents in certain ways like that.
Speaker 3 (22:32):
They're just like especially like me, They're like, this is
my mom.
Speaker 1 (22:34):
They're like kind of like yeah, yeah, So I don't
I don't know what the right answer is.
Speaker 5 (22:39):
I mean it's it's somebody's Scially, when you're doing an
imperfect system.
Speaker 3 (22:43):
Like you know, you're not going to make it better.
Speaker 5 (22:46):
If it's just bad already and there's you know, people
behaving badly, you can't really fix it.
Speaker 1 (23:01):
Do you see it affecting either of your kids differently?
You know where some are better with it than others.
Speaker 5 (23:07):
I mean, I think when they're little, it's obviously it's.
Speaker 3 (23:11):
Better because they don't get it.
Speaker 2 (23:13):
Yeah, and yeah, I.
Speaker 3 (23:14):
Mean they go through phases. But I think that the more.
Speaker 5 (23:18):
We stay together and understand it and talk about the
business of the clicks and selling the advertising and the
clickbait and really what that is and they can understand
helped me.
Speaker 3 (23:29):
I don't got to understand it.
Speaker 5 (23:31):
You know, when people told me I was good clickbait,
I was like, what is that?
Speaker 3 (23:34):
Even those first time I even heard this thing.
Speaker 5 (23:37):
Like No, So you're somebody that you know, in a
community of a lot of people that when they put
something about you, they know that they're going to click
on it, and when they click on it, that generates
ads and it's just like ends up being this whole
whole thing, and it just helps you to understand it.
I think the system a little bit more. But I
think it's just something that hopefully they will be able
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to separate from and say, that's the choices that these
people are making over here, and I'm going to go
onto my life. I think doing the reality show was
very helpful to us. Yeah, I gave us it was
very cathartic, and I think it gave us the ability
to speak when we were told not to mm hmm.
And I think speaking and continuing on even if you
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know when we're filming, it was in private. It was
in a private place with with these people who we trusted,
who we do trust of obviously they're wonderful people they
we I think that was that was very very life
saving for us.
Speaker 2 (24:36):
Oh cool.
Speaker 1 (24:37):
This is interesting to talk about, honestly because you you
I think from a just uh from a standpoint of
watching someone expose their lives on television, you know, the
perception is is that one is doing that for some
sort of notoriety. But there's a there's another you know,
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there's another level to it. There's depth to it, you know,
especially for someone like you, family like you guys who
have been so exposed without consent.
Speaker 2 (25:08):
Yes, and so now it's it's your time.
Speaker 5 (25:11):
It's interesting that you bring up that word because and
I don't. I don't have any I can't speak to
other reality shows. I don't watch a lot of reality shows.
I'm tired, I go to bed. I don't like actually
do much.
Speaker 3 (25:22):
I'm very boring. Sometimes it was like turn off.
Speaker 5 (25:25):
But I so our show runners, Sarah Ready, when we
met in person for the first time, we sat on
the rug in my in my living room.
Speaker 3 (25:37):
She said, the most important word of the.
Speaker 5 (25:40):
Season is consent. And I didn't really, you know, understand
anything about reality job. And I was like, I don't
think that was the word that I would have gone
to at that word that is the most important word,
And she said yes, especially with the children, we always
ask consent before we film, so much so to the
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point where Raphai or eldest, he'll notice he's not in
it that much because we didn't have it like he
was like no, I mean I don't want you, or
he would leave, and it was just very much even
if they didn't want to actually say it, he would,
you know, just kind of have his own space. And
there's a tremendous sense of feeling people's energy on the
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set and he will watch it now and he's like,
why am I not in this?
Speaker 3 (26:25):
I'm like, because we had consent.
Speaker 2 (26:26):
And he was like, he's like, why am I not
at this point?
Speaker 3 (26:30):
And I was like, because that wasn't the place that
you were in right now, right at that point. But no,
it was very much.
Speaker 1 (26:35):
You know.
Speaker 5 (26:35):
One of the reasons that she told me that is
she said, when you want to get true, you don't
want to.
Speaker 3 (26:40):
Put somebody in fight or flight.
Speaker 5 (26:43):
You want to put them in a place calm and
then they can be authentic and share with you. And
so I think that that's why the show feels so authentic.
I think this is why this book is so authentic,
is because it's consent.
Speaker 3 (26:58):
It's I'm sharing with you, and I'm a very open person,
you know. I lunch. I love that. That's why I
love to teach yoga. You know.
Speaker 5 (27:05):
I get to meet a whole other person and we
get to share something together and maybe maybe your life
is going to get this much better. My life is
going to get this much better, even just our energy
is connecting. I love that, and so that's what I
want to continue on. You know, even though I don't
teach as much yoga anymore. I want to bring that
into all areas of my life. Mm hmm.
Speaker 1 (27:25):
I mean, did you know what you were signing up for?
You know, you fell in love and you just met
a man, and you know who's handsome and fun and
funny as shit by the way, and talented is all
get up.
Speaker 2 (27:37):
And then you're like, whoa shit, this is not what
I signed up for.
Speaker 5 (27:42):
Well, I mean, I don't think when I mean, I
don't know how people at home who are listening to
this field, but like I never thought with anyone I
was dating, like I'm signing up for XYZ right, like,
regardless of what their profession is.
Speaker 3 (27:58):
Like, I'm not like, oh, doing this is signing up
to be whatever.
Speaker 5 (28:00):
I mean, I think that politics has like a separate
thing over there, but every other profession I don't understand,
like thinking.
Speaker 3 (28:08):
You know, when you're starting to date somebody that you're signing.
Speaker 5 (28:10):
Up for something, but so no, And I also, you
know the reality show we just said okay, And I
do a lot of things without thinking them through sometimes,
which I think is you know, it's a little impulsive,
but it's also very spontaneous. Then you know, I'm here
to try things and stuff like that. So you know,
I mean, I was just trying it out. This wasn't
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like somebody came with a contract and was like, this
is what it's going to be.
Speaker 3 (28:37):
Also, you know, I.
Speaker 5 (28:38):
Grew up not watching TV, and I.
Speaker 3 (28:44):
I still don't really watch TV to.
Speaker 5 (28:46):
This day, and I think that therefore I wasn't really
aware as much of that world. Of course I knew
he was famous. Of course I didn't understand. I don't
think anyone cooked, but especially I think because I was
so far removed and I was just teaching yoga all
the time. Yeah, oh but I didn't. Yeah, I didn't
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really understand what people say, Oh, you sign up for it,
what comes with that? You know, you're asking for it?
All of these like really wonderful things to hear, and I'm.
Speaker 3 (29:16):
Like, no, I know, I didn't.
Speaker 1 (29:19):
How do you deal with that, like like the scrutiny,
you know what I mean, and the press and all
the shit that goes down. You know, you get calloused
to it, you know, you start to understand a little
bit better and it doesn't really affect you, or I'm
not speaking for you.
Speaker 2 (29:32):
I'm saying maybe generally, But.
Speaker 1 (29:34):
The first couple of times where you're like, I didn't
do anything, Like why are you? Why is everyone so angry?
I mean, how were you.
Speaker 2 (29:42):
Able to sort of deal with that?
Speaker 1 (29:44):
Did you have a natural capacity to sort of say, hey,
you know, what's screw it?
Speaker 3 (29:48):
No? I wish, I wish. I feel like sometimes I'm
developing that a little bit more.
Speaker 2 (29:53):
I think people did it hurt It was hurtful.
Speaker 3 (29:56):
It is hurtful.
Speaker 5 (29:57):
I mean, I'm somebody I'm like, hey, let's all, let's
all be together. Was like, be like happy and together,
Like why are we doing this? I would never do
this to anyone.
Speaker 3 (30:04):
Why are you going to do it to me?
Speaker 5 (30:07):
But I mean, I'm a pretty defiant person, and I
you know, I have I've been talking about recently. I
have ADHD, and I will like hyper focus on certain things,
and I'll like and I'm also extremely literal.
Speaker 1 (30:20):
Yeah, sorry interrupt. But we just had a guy, you know,
a doctor who is.
Speaker 3 (30:24):
Like a prominent now I saw we left him.
Speaker 2 (30:27):
Oh he's so great.
Speaker 1 (30:29):
And because because I didn't know, I've never been diagnosed
or anything, but it just feels like my brain is
a little weird and I'm a creative and and he
was explaining how a lot of creatives are just naturally
they have add ADHD.
Speaker 2 (30:42):
But the way he reframed it as a.
Speaker 1 (30:44):
Superpower and not something that's stabilitating, you know what I mean?
Speaker 3 (30:47):
Yeah, which I love because growing up it was not
a superpower.
Speaker 5 (30:51):
Yeah, you know, there was not anywhere near or one
of our kids is I diagnosed with ADHD. And and
it was only then and that I started realizing that this.
Speaker 3 (31:01):
Is a whole new world of I think, you know, information, understanding, celebration.
Speaker 5 (31:10):
I mean I don't want to, you know, it's there
are things that I know that me and many other
people I know who we're wired very similarly. It helps us,
you know, And it is being creative, it is being spontaneous.
Speaker 3 (31:25):
It's really thinking about things in a completely different way.
Speaker 5 (31:30):
There's a resilience because I think people sometimes who have
who struggle, you know, some of the best teachers that
you can have troubled so much in their life. People
things just come like this to them. I mean they're like,
why don't you get it too? But people who had
to like really figure it out and struggle and know
how hard it is come to conveying information to another
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person with real empathy.
Speaker 3 (31:52):
So no that I was very happy. I was. I
was doing my research before you had him on, and
I love him.
Speaker 2 (31:59):
Yeah, it was awesome.
Speaker 5 (32:01):
Yeah, the whole idea about putting glasses on, and that
is really really true, you know. And it's not you know,
just medication which works for some people and doesn't work
for other people.
Speaker 3 (32:12):
But it's just an understanding. You know, all go on tangents.
Speaker 5 (32:16):
And now that I can understand this stuff a little
bit better, I then will like catch myself going on
a tangent and I'll be like, okay.
Speaker 3 (32:24):
Bring it all over, plan the plane exactly.
Speaker 2 (32:31):
No, I know, I know, but it is.
Speaker 1 (32:32):
It is interesting what happens when you are able to
look at it as something positive, you know, even even
just that feeling and that thought, It just changes the
way that you feel and think immediately, yeah.
Speaker 5 (32:48):
Well it's feeling valuable rather than like the stupid one
in class.
Speaker 1 (32:52):
Yeah.
Speaker 2 (32:52):
And you also just give yourselves a little grace. You're
just like, oh wait, yeah.
Speaker 5 (32:56):
And then telling people, you know, I think being able
to to people like I Also, I also have dyslexia,
and I'm like, not a great reader.
Speaker 3 (33:06):
I've been read pretty well in my head. But then
I also realized.
Speaker 5 (33:09):
That I'm like switching things and I like think that
it means one thing and actually means the opposite because
I realized there was a note in there or something
that completely changes everything. But and I did the audio
book for my books, so you can imagine how yea
the veriest scariest things for me, and I like came
in like apologizing. I'm like, I just want you to
know that, like I'm not the best like alloud reader.
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And they were so lovely and they actually told me
that a lot of people in this field of you know,
I don't like to call myself a celebrity body in
like those that genre public figure books or whatever were books,
they actually also are very say a lot of them
have these little little differences that that I have. So
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so anyway, they were really like lovely in featient with
me and and but but yeah, I'm so grateful that
people are talking about it now.
Speaker 1 (34:00):
Oh yeah, we'll talk about the book, talk about the
inspiration behind it, you know how this all came about.
Speaker 5 (34:06):
So I I mean, I guess maybe maybe I'm learning.
I'm doing a therapy session right now, because you know,
I agreed to do.
Speaker 3 (34:16):
I know I'm going on a tangent noticing seeing.
Speaker 1 (34:18):
I love it, by the way, I'm a tangent motherfucker,
Like I go.
Speaker 3 (34:23):
That will be good.
Speaker 2 (34:24):
Yeah.
Speaker 3 (34:26):
The we agreed to do.
Speaker 5 (34:29):
The reality show without thinking about it, and we started
filming it two weeks before the trial started, which is
just like I look back and I'm like, like, I
didn't think it's what was thinking. I didn't really realize
the time frame until like it came time and I
was just like, oh my god.
Speaker 3 (34:46):
This was like what are we going to do now
that we not film the rest of it? If he
goes to jail? Like what am we supposed to do?
Speaker 5 (34:51):
Was really really so I actually started writing this book
right after, right after the trige happened.
Speaker 1 (35:01):
And I was there, I was I was shooting a
TV show in New Mexico.
Speaker 3 (35:07):
Really were you?
Speaker 2 (35:08):
Yeah?
Speaker 5 (35:08):
It was just an awful, tragic project time and I
but I think that, you know, this book helped me
very much get be a better person, parent, partner because
it was almost like a journal that I could be,
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that I could be doing, and it really started to connect.
It was just basically like thought vomit for years because
every I mean I had a baby during this you
know what I mean like there was like there was
this so much stuff happened during the course of writing
this book. And you know, I'm a because I'm a
very open person and very unfiltered. I I a lot
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of it was kind of you know, after the trial,
it really sat down and I it all came together
and I would do like ten pages a day, which
for me, somebody like made us a lot. And it
was that just like I know now what to say,
whereas I could put feeling, but these is I knew
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what to say in this in this time, or at
least I hope.
Speaker 3 (36:20):
I hope I said the right things.
Speaker 5 (36:23):
And I also think that, you know, leaning into you know,
my mi neurodivergence. It is written in very like little
you know, pieces, a little stories, and that helps me
as well, because I struggle sometimes with just connect doing
that seamless storytelling and connecting things where I can.
Speaker 3 (36:44):
Hear here here, here, here, that all works sense here.
Speaker 5 (36:48):
So it is written very much in in my.
Speaker 3 (36:53):
My voice because I wrote it in the way that I.
Speaker 5 (36:55):
Think as well the structure of it, and I hope
that I shared stories that feel, you know, even though
I've had extraordinarily unrelatable things happen to me in my life.
But I think that the themes are hopefully things that
you know, Yeah, I.
Speaker 2 (37:10):
Don't think that.
Speaker 1 (37:10):
I think that that sells yourself a little short as
far as unrelatable goes, because that's just I think there again,
there is a perception of someone who is in the
public eye, who does have you know, fortune, who does
have some fame, that they don't feel anything that they
don't have the same sort of you know, issues and
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hardships and afflictions that that everyone else has and and.
Speaker 2 (37:36):
So we're not allowed to talk about it. There's pain
in all.
Speaker 1 (37:39):
Of us, right, absolutely, there's relatability in all of our pain.
Speaker 5 (37:44):
You know, yes, yeah, no, And I'm a strong believer
that if whoever is listening is going to come into
it either wanting to see humanity or not.
Speaker 3 (37:57):
And then there you go.
Speaker 5 (37:58):
But I hope and I do think that you know,
whether it is silly parenting stories that I share, or
you know, issues that Alec and I have had in
our relationship, or tremendous tragedy.
Speaker 3 (38:14):
Or becoming a mother, you know, losing.
Speaker 5 (38:17):
Pregnancies, these are things that you know, everybody unfortunately knows
what it's like to experience a tragedy. There are are
our version of it might be different, but the overall,
you know, theme is tragedy. The overall theme is problems
in marriage overall theme. And I think the reason that
I wanted to share was because it's people sharing with
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me that helped me get through my hard times. You know,
I think when people come up to me and they'll
say something very kind, I always want to tell them,
you know, I'm so grateful for that, and I'm able
to do these things and you know, be this person
because other people have inspired me.
Speaker 1 (39:11):
The idea is, we're hearing all of your stories. We're
getting a little snapshort of your life. We're hearing it
in your voice, and you know, very digestible chunks.
Speaker 2 (39:22):
So it's not this reflowing sort of book.
Speaker 1 (39:26):
And it's basically the idea is is I thought that
I knew you have this idea of how to go
about something, but until you're in it, you really don't know.
Speaker 2 (39:41):
You know, there is no manual like you think that.
Speaker 1 (39:43):
There's an okay when I have kids, this is how
I'm going to feel when I get married, this is
how it's going to be, you know, and it's just
never what you think it is.
Speaker 5 (39:52):
Yeah, no, exactly, and being open and curious and self
forgiving of when you know when you get it wrong,
and you know, not beating myself up, feeling sometimes like
I let myself down, you know, I let somebody get
to me, and I'm like, oh.
Speaker 3 (40:08):
Told that myself.
Speaker 5 (40:09):
I would never let that happen again, you know, I mean,
these are this is is just a human but and
it's also you know the question that you asked me
before about, you know, was I prepared for any of
this what I was signing up for? And that's you know,
I really wanted nothing to do with this business.
Speaker 3 (40:29):
That now I very much enjoy.
Speaker 5 (40:31):
As much as we talk about the negative things, there's
so much amazing things about this business. There's so much
and I really.
Speaker 3 (40:37):
Am so grateful for it, and I've really enjoyed myself.
Speaker 5 (40:41):
But you know, there is you know, I was very
frightened of it at the beginning. I didn't really know
anything I was getting into. And I remember that I
was encouraged once we got I think that's when we're
getting engaged to do a piece with extra then that
I worked for for many years afterwards, because I became
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friendly with them, and they basically said, if you give
this story, then everybody will leave you alone. And that's
why I did the first thing. I was like, great,
I will do this and then everybody.
Speaker 3 (41:13):
Will just leave me alone. I can go back to
teaching yoga and that's it.
Speaker 5 (41:16):
Obviously that was not a true promise, and I also
leaned into it as well.
Speaker 3 (41:22):
I'd have to take responsibility for it, but it is.
I was my initial thing.
Speaker 5 (41:28):
And so you know, I look at this past fourteen
years plus that I've known Alec and a lot of
other people have been done doing the talking for me. Right,
you know, if they talk about you, they talk for you.
Sometimes it's true, sometimes it's not true. Sometimes it's positive,
sometimes it's not positive. Right, we have all of the things,
but the most important thing is that they're talking for me.
Speaker 3 (41:48):
And that's where I, you know, wanted to be.
Speaker 5 (41:51):
Like, you know what, I'm going to talk for myself.
So the book is I'm talking for myself. The show
is we're talking. That's my new I'm in my forties
now talking for myself.
Speaker 3 (41:59):
Thank you very much.
Speaker 2 (42:00):
I love that.
Speaker 1 (42:01):
And then moving forward forty and on, do you have
sort of goals or aspirations of sort of how you
want to shift it or live your life, you know
what I mean, Like you're done with having kids or
so you say, right, so that's done. You know what's new?
Like is there is there a piece of you when
you turn forty? We're like, you know what this is
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who I want.
Speaker 2 (42:23):
To be known.
Speaker 3 (42:23):
I feel like one of the gaps that people don't talk.
Speaker 5 (42:26):
About very much for women. I don't know how you
feel for men, but for women is we are kids.
We you know, get educated, We're going to go to college.
And again my generation can go to college. I know
that I'm very lucky in this way to have had
that as a dream that is achievable. And them we
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get married and I'm gonna have kids and then it's over. Yeah,
nobody talks about the afterpart. So that's what I'm like
in the age of discovery.
Speaker 3 (42:54):
You know that right now? And I feel that there's
lot of raising to be down with these children that
I have put in right so.
Speaker 5 (43:05):
We're in the raising face and I think, you know,
I think just in terms of feeling every single day,
I don't want to feel like the world is out
to get me, which has or out to get my
family which has been a dark thought that I've had
for a very long time.
Speaker 3 (43:25):
And as much as I try to be positive, and
that is my vulnerable state of just oh god, they're trying,
you know. You know, we'll have.
Speaker 5 (43:34):
People come up to us on the street and we're
just walking with a kid, and you know they're up
to no good and they just start streaming and like
you know, tabloid press, they're screaming stuff and they're just
trying to get a reaction, and you can go from
a sunny, beautiful day to all of a sudden they're
in your face. You weren't expecting it. Like I don't
want that anymore, and I know that I can't make
them go away. There's absolutely nothing, and I'm like they
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have a teacher. I'm like, don't you see my human
and the and they're like I don't care about but
it's very painful. But if I want to try to
lean more and more into just surrounding myself by like
really good and positive people, always remembering that even when
there's negativity, there's so much more positive people and so
much more kind people. And so I just have to
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lean into that more and more. And I'm the one
that has to trade that. You know, I can't expect
the world is going to do it for me.
Speaker 2 (44:21):
Because they're not exactly exactly.
Speaker 1 (44:24):
This is just a choice because there are things we
can control and things we can't. Obviously we you cannot
control anyone coming up to you, the way that they
feel about you, how they approach you and your family,
the disrespect, the invasion. You can't control that. The only
you control is how you react, how you react, how
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you bring that in. That's it, I mean, because the
answer is not being a homebody and just fucking staying
inside all day. That's not That's not who you are,
and that's not who we are as humans. We want
to get out, we want to experience. So it's just
about sort of making the choice.
Speaker 3 (45:02):
Yeah, no, it's very true, It's very true.
Speaker 1 (45:05):
One more question, what do you think the biggest sort
of misconception of you is? You know, because like you
just said it, people speak for you about you, and
then it builds a perception of you that is not
necessarily true. What would you say is the biggest misconception?
Speaker 5 (45:30):
I mean, I think if I were to look at
a twenty seven year old yoga instructor who was dating
a fifty three year old rich and famous man.
Speaker 3 (45:44):
What would I think? Right?
Speaker 5 (45:48):
And so anytime people think things about me, I try
to give them the empathy and the compassion of without
the experiences that I have.
Speaker 3 (46:00):
Yeah, what would I think about somebody in my shoes?
Speaker 2 (46:03):
Interesting?
Speaker 5 (46:05):
And so you know, I I have zero interest in
setting records straight.
Speaker 3 (46:12):
And then this and then that is like.
Speaker 5 (46:13):
Again, people are gonna see you, or they're not gonna
see They're gonna like you, They're not gonna like you,
They're gonna want to take you in, or they're.
Speaker 3 (46:18):
Not gonna take you in. But I think that, you know,
all I've wanted to do is belong and be who
I always am.
Speaker 5 (46:29):
And you know, I enjoyed so much and start teaching
yog at five o'clock in the morning and I finished
at ten thirty pm most days, and I worked three
hundred and sixty five days out of the year and
I loved it so much, And get paid thirty five
dollars a class, and I really, you know, enjoy just
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being there and helping people feel better.
Speaker 3 (46:54):
And that is something that it still guides me. You know.
Speaker 5 (46:59):
Again, I'm raised by I'm raised by My parents are
very hippie and I am very much a product of that.
Speaker 3 (47:07):
And so I mean, I just I guess, you know,
I think that.
Speaker 5 (47:12):
I have been brought into worlds that sometimes people want
to look at you as you're you know, conniving and
trying things. And you see it about other women who
start dating rich and famous men. I feel like it's
very a little different when it's a man coming in
dating a rich and famous woman, Right, it's a little different.
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There's a very specific thing. And I think it's these
fairy tales that we grow up with and you know,
the prince choosing one of them.
Speaker 3 (47:40):
And I think that.
Speaker 5 (47:40):
It's, you know, this idea that you know, women we
sometimes feel like, you know.
Speaker 3 (47:46):
Where it's it's a it's a well. You know. Sometimes
men can be like a well and we're like, okay,
we've got to get to the first to the well.
Speaker 5 (47:56):
And you know, I hope that more and more we
can establish you know, equal rights where we don't have
to compete or have feel competing with each other for something.
So I don't know, I try not to read too
much about other people's opinions because you know, but I
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think that I try to understand what people say and
you know, if I encourage people to read the book.
Speaker 2 (48:25):
Yeah, read the book.
Speaker 1 (48:26):
And I also think that you make a great point,
you know what I mean, like the fact that you
can sort of put yourself in their shoes and understand
where they're coming from and what you might think given
the fact, given that you.
Speaker 2 (48:37):
Aren't who you are, right, I think that that's smart,
you know.
Speaker 1 (48:41):
I think that does bring on some empathy, and it's like,
you know, they might be wrong, they might have these
opinions that are built out of something that is bullshit,
but you know, maybe I would think the same thing.
Get to know me, understand who I am, you know,
and that's that's it. And there's nothing you can do
about it except be you.
Speaker 3 (48:56):
That's it exactly. And there's nothing else that I that
I want to do, you know, and I want my
kids to.
Speaker 2 (49:01):
Know how to do that.
Speaker 3 (49:03):
I'm just like what it is, you know.
Speaker 2 (49:06):
Yeah, and that's it.
Speaker 1 (49:07):
That's it, because the truth is, we don't have money
all that ship that we a true legacy, what we
truly leave behind. It's not award, it's not fame, it's
not money. It's our children. They're the ones who are
carrying us on. Essentially, you know what I mean. And
then our grandchildren and break grand I mean, we are
the legacy and if we need to give them, we
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need to give them a piece of us, to impart
wisdom into them that they can take or not. Then
they will continue on.
Speaker 3 (49:38):
Yeah, Abs, absolutely well cool.
Speaker 2 (49:42):
This has been rather I appreciate you coming.
Speaker 3 (49:44):
On talking to appreciate your time.
Speaker 2 (49:47):
Be well, good luck with the book. Were good talking
to you all right.
Speaker 3 (49:50):
Thank you, bye, take care. Thank you.
Hi.
Speaker 2 (00:05):
I am Kate Hudson and my name is Oliver Hudson.
Speaker 3 (00:08):
We wanted to do something that highlighted our.
Speaker 2 (00:11):
Relationship and what it's like to be siblings.
Speaker 3 (00:19):
We are a.
Speaker 4 (00:19):
Sibling Railvalry No, no, sibling, val don't do that with
your mouth, Vely.
Speaker 2 (00:33):
That's good.
Speaker 1 (00:38):
It's Oliver Hudson here, solo mission, me and me and me,
not me myself, and i'd me me me.
Speaker 2 (00:47):
I need to do more me me me because I
I don't take enough care of myself. I need to
go me me, me, me me. You know what.
Speaker 1 (00:54):
I can do this whole fucking intro right now and
do a whole thing. But we have a guest waiting
in the waiting room and I need to get to
her because I'm excited to have conversations and talk about
life and bigger things and unscripted shows with husbands and
books and let's get into it.
Speaker 2 (01:15):
Please bring on missus Baldwin, Larry Baldmin.
Speaker 1 (01:19):
Hello, how are you. I'm good, I'm sorry, I'm late,
that's okay. I did a whole panel for my gut
health for you know, they did blood, they did this,
they did that. Unfortunately it was stool. I mean it
was everything. So I had a consultation after the fact
(01:40):
to go over every piece of my body, scared, hoping
that there wasn't some shit that is going to you.
Speaker 2 (01:47):
Know, I'm going to not have much longer to live.
But so I was going through the whole process and
it was very interesting.
Speaker 3 (01:56):
It can be interesting. That kind of thing always scares me.
Speaker 5 (01:59):
Did you see you seeing me like full body scan
doing in Europe?
Speaker 2 (02:05):
Yeah, well there's the pre nuvo stuff too.
Speaker 5 (02:08):
I mean I don't know all the names, but I
was looking at this and I was like, you know what,
this would probably terrify me. But they stay within like
an hour or something like that. You know so much
about your.
Speaker 2 (02:16):
Yeah, yeah, no, I did it.
Speaker 1 (02:18):
I did a full body scan I think last year,
and uh yeah. Then you sit down with the technician
and the lead up is scary as shit.
Speaker 2 (02:29):
You're just thinking, okay, you know any.
Speaker 3 (02:32):
Any sort of health scarceuse. We all have like little
you know, Yeah, I.
Speaker 5 (02:36):
Feel like we all have our things, and especially once
you at least for women, once we have kids, there's
not only things for us, but then there's things for
the kids too, and it's all scary. The best doctors
are people calling you this, nurses, whoever's calling to get
the result.
Speaker 3 (02:53):
They will just like pick up the phone. They're like,
everything's fine.
Speaker 2 (02:56):
Yeah, I'm good, thank you.
Speaker 3 (02:58):
No, I know, I know, don't ask me how I'm doing. Nothing,
just everything is fine.
Speaker 2 (03:02):
You're yes, exactly, get into it. I love that.
Speaker 1 (03:06):
I know, I totally agree. I mean, because you're just
waiting for some sort of a shoe to drop and
then the doctor's not calling you after you've done your
blood work and whatever, and oh my god, something's wrong.
And you know, I mean I have anxiety around health
for sure.
Speaker 5 (03:21):
Very It's like, you know, we we so much focus
on all these material things and stresses and what people
think and stuff like that, and ultimately our health is
number one. But you know, I even say with you know,
the way that we've learned to communicate in with my
friends and my husband and and my family is I'm like,
(03:42):
start at the end and then let's.
Speaker 3 (03:45):
Get to the story.
Speaker 5 (03:46):
So, you know, my my son recently broke his collar
book and I wasn't there.
Speaker 3 (03:50):
So if we start with.
Speaker 5 (03:52):
Okay, Romeo is having X Y Z, and then we
can go back, just you know, once you start it
from the beginning, and you're like you're guessing and guessing.
Speaker 3 (04:00):
And guessing, like what's happened? And now go back and learn.
Speaker 5 (04:04):
And I've that's actually helped me tremendously with anxiety because
you just get there.
Speaker 3 (04:08):
There's no lead up there.
Speaker 2 (04:10):
That's great. Yeah, yeah, yeah, no, I like that. Yeah.
Speaker 1 (04:13):
It's like when you get a call from the school.
But just happened fucking too many times with my insane children,
although they're great kids that get straight a's and they're amazing.
So you get that call from the from the school
and immediately you see the school on the on the
ID and you.
Speaker 2 (04:31):
Pick it up and the first thing they say is
why is my one of my sons Wilder? He goes
Wilder is fine.
Speaker 5 (04:36):
Okay, good, get to the end and then like what
we have to deal with? No, that's good for me.
It was when the nurse calls. So I have six
in the same school, and so the nurse calls and
she's like.
Speaker 3 (04:50):
I'm like, which one is it here? And I'm like, great, yeah.
Speaker 2 (04:58):
No, I I get I know.
Speaker 1 (05:00):
And as when I had kids, I have three kids.
I have to say that this fear of death honestly
is gotten worse and it and it's not even a
selfish thing. It's more about my children, you know what
I mean, Like I go to this place of I
need to be here for them to continue on, you know,
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imparting whatever wisdom or insanity.
Speaker 2 (05:29):
That I'm going to give them.
Speaker 1 (05:30):
But you know, I think that that is an issue
and I wish. I don't think you can truly truly
live until you have sort of gotten over this fear
of death. You know, there's liberation there.
Speaker 5 (05:43):
Yeah, no, it's I think I bring my kids to
cemeteries a lot. It was, and I feel like and
first of all, I do, I feel very much like
you do. It's see, you know, it's it's once you
become a parent. I think that how fragile life can is,
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can be very you know, it becomes very Uh it
comes into my fears all the time. But I I
really feel like, you know, we spend time in cemeteries
and you know, everything from like the history of it,
and just also acknowledging like.
Speaker 3 (06:25):
This is part of life.
Speaker 5 (06:26):
You know, this is part of life, and there's a
tremendous amount of peace there as well, and not being afraid,
you know, if not of death, but of people who
have died, you know, and because I don't want anyone
to be afraid of me when I die, so I
try to have that kind of connection with them.
Speaker 3 (06:45):
But no, I mean, this is the this is the
human the human thing.
Speaker 2 (06:50):
Do you have fears and anxieties? You know?
Speaker 1 (06:52):
I mean, is this part of your of your life?
Is managing yourself to be the best for your kids
and your husband?
Speaker 5 (07:01):
I mean, yeah, I mean I so I turned forty
one this year, and I feel like, for what I
hear from other women, I feel like forty is a
big growing up phase in life. You know, I've had
my kids, I doubt I'll have any more, and I
have also not only do I have a lot of kids,
but I've been thrust into many experiences in life that.
Speaker 3 (07:27):
I had zero preparation for.
Speaker 5 (07:29):
I don't know if anyone would and and so yeah, no,
I mean it's definitely the fears of am I able
to do this? Am I good enough for this? You
know the title of my book, where's a manual for this?
Manuals not included? Like kids said anyone? And you know,
who can I call to get advice for this? And
(07:49):
you know there isn't anyone. But that's where I think,
you know, my my yoga practice, breathing, running, gratitude. I've
I've always been just a very grateful person anytime things
are going bad, and you know, somebody came up with
you know it came and.
Speaker 3 (08:06):
Told me about toxic Oh don't be so toxic positive.
Speaker 5 (08:08):
And I'm like, if I'm not positive somewhere or find
beauty somewhere, it's just going to get so.
Speaker 3 (08:13):
Dark, you know.
Speaker 5 (08:14):
So I try to cling onto some sort of beauty
and positivity wherever I can find it. So yeah, no,
I mean, it's definitely, it's definitely there. But then I
also think about the perspective and the experience that I
want my kids to remember when they're in their twenties
and thirties and beon.
Speaker 3 (08:31):
And think how was my mom? How was my childhood?
Speaker 5 (08:35):
All feign happiness sometimes just because I want them to
feel that joy, and they're very smarting sometimes were like.
Speaker 2 (08:41):
Mm oh yeah, but at least oh no, they know,
they know, they know they're there.
Speaker 1 (08:48):
Their intuition is so strong and spot on, and they
feel so much, and they pay attention way more than
we think that they're paying attention. My kids will sometimes
my daughter, what's wrong, Dad. I'm like, how did you know?
Speaker 2 (09:07):
You know what I mean? Like, they can feel that that.
Speaker 1 (09:10):
Energy, and I guess sometimes yeah, you got to put
on the good face and then sometimes you just got
to say yeah, you know, yeah I'm not good right now,
and that's okay.
Speaker 3 (09:19):
Yeah. I'm a big believer in a healthy dose of.
Speaker 5 (09:24):
That, because I think by not telling them you question
their sense of feeling and their own intuition. But we
talk a lot in our family as well about that
your feelings can lie to you, which I didn't grow up.
Everything is like, oh, we trust your feelings, trust you're good.
Sometimes your feelings are anxiety and they're not true. Yes,
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sometimes your feelings are I feel like a horrible piece
of it today and this is just just so awful
and I'm the stupidest.
Speaker 3 (09:53):
And that's not a true feeling.
Speaker 5 (09:55):
Yeah, you know, you can validate that where that is
coming from, and that that is, you know, an anxiet,
But that's an anxiety.
Speaker 3 (10:01):
That's not a true feeling.
Speaker 5 (10:03):
And so I talk about that with my kids as well,
because ultimately what we want them to become is good
problem solvers. If they can solve you know, what, what
do I want to do with my life, what makes
me happy?
Speaker 3 (10:15):
Who are good people to surround myself with?
Speaker 5 (10:18):
You know? How How can I treat other people and
be a good citizen of this world? Then we're doing
a really good job.
Speaker 2 (10:25):
I think as parents, that's what we try, that's what
that's what we strive for, you know. And we all
do it differently, which is so interesting as well. All
parents do it differently.
Speaker 1 (10:33):
There is no Well it's interesting you know about your book,
you know, using the word manual, right, because there is
no manual, I mean. And I raise my kids so
differently than my sister does. And they're all great kids,
you know, but I have different theories and I have
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different instincts than you might, and that Kate might, or
than anyone might, right, yeah, you know, And it's just
something And it's not about if we're fucking them up.
Speaker 2 (11:05):
I think it's just to what degree, you know what
I mean, we are screwing them up one way or another.
It's just part of the life, you know, Right.
Speaker 5 (11:13):
Well you might find as well that you know, with
your children, they're all so different, so you're going to
have to parent each one of them. Yes, you know,
I have a big brother and I look up to him,
and I think that he's since this is a sibling show,
since I think like.
Speaker 3 (11:27):
The world of him.
Speaker 5 (11:28):
And he has a my nephew who's twenty, and he
is just like such a good dad, and I got
so inspired by how he parents because it's, you know,
really about being together and connection. And you know, my
nephew is really close to him, like sleep in bed
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in the bed with him, so you know, everybody's judging,
and my brother's like, it's not going to sleep in
bed with me when he's in college, you know. And
it's like he understood that these so he taught me
a lot about phases and you know, just kind of
really being present for the individual child that you have.
And so I'm different with in some ways. With all
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of my kids, I've had to hone in.
Speaker 2 (12:15):
And you know, just like hell yeah, all without a doubt.
I mean, I would do it.
Speaker 1 (12:19):
My wife and I talk about it all the time,
how differently we would have done it with our first kid,
knowing what.
Speaker 2 (12:23):
We know now.
Speaker 1 (12:24):
I mean, it's night and day from one, number one
to number three, and you got number one to number seven.
So I'm sure there was a lot of evolution from
one to seven.
Speaker 5 (12:34):
Yeah, no, no, no, and that but that's the thing,
is like teaching our kids that we are evolving and
we are, you know, imperfect. I was reading a something
about how people who have good relationships with their parents
as adults and what their parents did well as children
when they were children, and it was about saying that
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you're sorry and admitting that when they were wrong and fallible.
And I think that that's one of the big you
know keys. I try to include my kids in an
empowering way in their growth. So you know, yes, they
have to do their home, Yes they have to eat
their vegetabs, Yes they.
Speaker 3 (13:13):
Have to go to bed.
Speaker 5 (13:13):
All of these there are rules, trust me, there are rules.
But the more that I can encourage them to feel
a purpose in their own growth and the why why
and taking the time even when I'm hearing seven whys
at the same time about seven different completely different subjects
and they're yelling at me at the same time. So
you can imagine a spinner. Not only I have seven,
I have seven very close together. Yeah, but that's something
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that you know, hopefully, well, hopefully it will turn out well.
Speaker 3 (13:41):
For our relationship.
Speaker 1 (13:42):
Yeah, and so you have you have one sibling A
one sibling. Yeah, and so take us back, take us back.
Speaker 2 (13:50):
Where were you? Where were you born? Where did you
grow up?
Speaker 1 (13:54):
So?
Speaker 3 (13:54):
I'm born in Boston.
Speaker 5 (13:55):
My whole family lives in Spain, which was a big
part of my childhood as well. Is where my whole
family lives and we Yeah, my brother lives there. Oh,
he's lived there most of his life, and I've lived
here mostly.
Speaker 2 (14:11):
Did you live in Boston?
Speaker 3 (14:13):
I live in Boston, Boston yea yeah, yeah, yeah, Well.
Speaker 2 (14:16):
That's my my in law. So my wife grew up.
Speaker 1 (14:19):
They grew up in Boston, my in laws, like we
were in Brockton, and then my wife was in Long Meadow,
which is just uh, I know it. Yeah, and then
now we go to the cake.
Speaker 2 (14:29):
We go to Falma every summer for three weeks.
Speaker 3 (14:31):
But where are you? Where are you located now?
Speaker 2 (14:33):
I'm in La born and raised La.
Speaker 3 (14:35):
Born and raised in La. And are you how is
everything there?
Speaker 2 (14:38):
It was crazy?
Speaker 1 (14:39):
Yeah, the fires were definitely affected us. One of my
brother's houses went down, so now it sucks. Then my parents, Kate, myself,
our houses were not directly affected, but some smoke damage
and stuff like that.
Speaker 3 (14:55):
You guys all live very near each other.
Speaker 2 (14:56):
Yeah, we're all sort of eight ten minutes away everybody.
I love that.
Speaker 3 (15:00):
That's so nice.
Speaker 5 (15:01):
I tell that to my my kids, and they're having
conversation this morning because my my son, my oldest son,
went away to like this. I don't know if your
kids did, like a two day you go away with
your your class, like I.
Speaker 3 (15:13):
Can't play bumps and stuff like that. And I was
a wreck. And it's so weird because I have seven kids,
and you would think that like six kids are.
Speaker 5 (15:21):
Still like noisy, and it's like so quiet, even the
one and he's even like one and more quiet of
the bunch.
Speaker 2 (15:27):
Yeah, it was just such a.
Speaker 5 (15:28):
Weird changing the dynamic. And he came back yesterday and
I said to him, I said, you know that's it.
All of you guys are going to live inn account
compounds because we're all going to live with me forever.
Speaker 2 (15:37):
I love that, No, I know.
Speaker 1 (15:39):
I mean, and only do you truly understand the love
that your parents have for you once you have your
own children. You know, when we grow up and you
know your parents are loving on you, and they're concerned
about you, and and they just want you to sort
of be good human beings and and be well off
(16:01):
and be positive and oh mom, I got it, I
got it. And then when you have children and then
you are in their shoes. The appreciation now that I
have for my parents, you know, the love that has
deepened for them once I've had my kids, is astronomical
because I understand it now. I understand that you love
so hard.
Speaker 2 (16:20):
That you don't even know what to do with it, right,
you know what I mean?
Speaker 5 (16:24):
Also just you know, I mean I talk about, you know,
being fallible and just not understanding what to do. And
I always try to think about, you know, my parents,
my friend's parents, when we're at my friends and I,
you know, everybody off conversations and everything, and I think,
you know.
Speaker 3 (16:43):
If I don't, none of us know what we're doing.
Most of the time, we're trying, we're trying our best.
Speaker 5 (16:49):
And so I think becoming a parent is also a
really good dose of, you know, looking back and thinking, wow,
my parents were in their twenties and thirties and forties
and I and beyond hopefully you know, and and you
know the same thing like when I look at some
of these very difficult experiences I've had, I hope my
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kids just.
Speaker 3 (17:11):
Know that I was trying my best, and I hope.
Speaker 5 (17:14):
That they know that there was no manual and in
the end, I just wanted everybody to be okay, and
and you know, it's a little bit of you know,
trial and error. I have a story in the book
we had, I think on our show. Yeah, I was
on our show as well about how you know I
have we have paparazzi downstairs sometimes and I'm always trying
(17:38):
to take care of Alec and try to get them
out of the house without these you know, because they're
the name of the games.
Speaker 3 (17:44):
They don't care what they say. They're just trying to
get a reaction at it.
Speaker 5 (17:48):
And I had one morning where I was like all
out of like all my tricks and I don't know
how these things come to mind, but I just come
up with like the craziest stuff to do sometimes and
I'm like crazy enough to try it. So I was like,
you know what, I don't know what's doing. It's so
cold outside. I go upstairs and sad, I'm gonna put
something crazy on and then I'm gonna try to lead
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lure them away from the house and then get an
uber to come at the same time so they don't
recognize our car and Alec can go in and they
will be here. And so I put on fishnets and
this tinle skirt and it's like like I look ridiculous,
but she gets it's like eleven side and freezing, and
I'm walking in very slowly and pretends me on the
phone and I'm walking, walking, walking to the corner and
(18:29):
you and sure enough they start following me, and I'm like,
this is like thirty percent chance of working.
Speaker 3 (18:34):
Yeah, And they follow me.
Speaker 5 (18:35):
And they're taking pictures and I kind of turn around
and I'm gazing at the door and see.
Speaker 3 (18:39):
Alec like dirt into a car and drive away, and
I just like turned around and it was like.
Speaker 5 (18:45):
I mean, in some ways like get leaning into trying
to find silly ways like pressful situations.
Speaker 3 (18:51):
But he and then of course they love to like
call me a slug and stuff like that.
Speaker 5 (18:55):
It's like, look, she just wanted to I'm like, well,
now I can tell you what I was doing.
Speaker 2 (19:01):
Yeah, you guys, you made a game. You made a
game out it made a game out of it.
Speaker 5 (19:06):
And so there's times, by the way, I try these
things and sometimes it doesn't go well either, so you know,
or I don't win, but that was one where I went.
But again, that's like an example of like, I hope
people look back and be like, you know what, she's crazy,
but she's trying her very best.
Speaker 2 (19:21):
Oh yeah, yeah.
Speaker 1 (19:22):
And by the way, you know, because it was a
different time obviously then, but I grew up with famous parents,
so I had to deal with paparazzi and you know,
people in general, fans in general coming up to my
mom and Kurt and whatever that meant to me and
felt to me as a young kid might have been irrational,
(19:44):
but there were my feelings where I just didn't want
people invading our space and it gave me sort of
just angry feelings a lot of the time. And it's
a thing that you have to navigate as parents, especially
now in the spotlight, right, So how do you guys
deal with that, talk to your kids about it, you know,
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or is it just kind of hey, guys, this is
what it is inside our four walls, it's all. It
is what it is, and when we go outside, you know, sorry,
not sorry, but this is our fucking life.
Speaker 5 (20:18):
Yeah, I mean, I think it's after I answer, I'd
love to get your opinions. You lived it as a child,
and I not grow up as a famous person, So
I have no idea what I'm doing with famous parents.
Speaker 3 (20:32):
But my I think it depends on what's going on.
Speaker 5 (20:37):
And I think because these past few years have been
so difficult, we've a lot of the attention that is
coming at us. It was very, very aggressive because it
entered into a new realm where there was a feeling
of entitlement to go another step of the right relation,
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you know, to really like is it all of it
is a violation? Taking a picture without somebody's consent is
a violation, right, But then it gets to be like
we're like shoving you violations, you know what I mean.
And and so with the kids, you know, if they're
far away, we kind of like talk about it and
bothers them because they see it bothers us, and that's
our fault, right we should One of the things where
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I've made a mistake is I should just take a
deep breath and that like burning sort of like why
are you doing this to me? Saying I need to
learn how to calm down. So that's what I'm working
on in like.
Speaker 1 (21:34):
My therapy, in you, in your therapy and your meditation,
and your journaling and breath in your wellness journey exactly.
Speaker 5 (21:43):
And it's another step when they're like streaming stuff at
us that the kids are there, like you know that
that kind of thing, and there's no level of humanity.
Speaker 3 (21:50):
I'll say them like, you know my kids, don't they hear, no,
we don't care. They say, I don't care about your kids.
Speaker 5 (21:55):
They will actually say it, and then they cut that
part out when they when they sell. So I think
some of it is explaining the business, but I think
it goes back to what you were saying before.
Speaker 3 (22:04):
Kids are smart. Kids are smart. They see things, you know.
Speaker 5 (22:08):
I mean, how many kids of famous parents or famous
kids you see them like giving the middle.
Speaker 3 (22:13):
Finger to like a paparazzi or something.
Speaker 5 (22:15):
I have. My kids definitely happen, I'm like, but out
of them, they feel my boys. I have four boys,
and it is so funny how they feel. You know,
they're nine, eight, six, and four and they feel very
protective over their parents in certain ways like that.
Speaker 3 (22:32):
They're just like especially like me, They're like, this is
my mom.
Speaker 1 (22:34):
They're like kind of like yeah, yeah, So I don't
I don't know what the right answer is.
Speaker 5 (22:39):
I mean it's it's somebody's Scially, when you're doing an
imperfect system.
Speaker 3 (22:43):
Like you know, you're not going to make it better.
Speaker 5 (22:46):
If it's just bad already and there's you know, people
behaving badly, you can't really fix it.
Speaker 1 (23:01):
Do you see it affecting either of your kids differently?
You know where some are better with it than others.
Speaker 5 (23:07):
I mean, I think when they're little, it's obviously it's.
Speaker 3 (23:11):
Better because they don't get it.
Speaker 2 (23:13):
Yeah, and yeah, I.
Speaker 3 (23:14):
Mean they go through phases. But I think that the more.
Speaker 5 (23:18):
We stay together and understand it and talk about the
business of the clicks and selling the advertising and the
clickbait and really what that is and they can understand
helped me.
Speaker 3 (23:29):
I don't got to understand it.
Speaker 5 (23:31):
You know, when people told me I was good clickbait,
I was like, what is that?
Speaker 3 (23:34):
Even those first time I even heard this thing.
Speaker 5 (23:37):
Like No, So you're somebody that you know, in a
community of a lot of people that when they put
something about you, they know that they're going to click
on it, and when they click on it, that generates
ads and it's just like ends up being this whole
whole thing, and it just helps you to understand it.
I think the system a little bit more. But I
think it's just something that hopefully they will be able
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to separate from and say, that's the choices that these
people are making over here, and I'm going to go
onto my life. I think doing the reality show was
very helpful to us. Yeah, I gave us it was
very cathartic, and I think it gave us the ability
to speak when we were told not to mm hmm.
And I think speaking and continuing on even if you
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know when we're filming, it was in private. It was
in a private place with with these people who we trusted,
who we do trust of obviously they're wonderful people they
we I think that was that was very very life
saving for us.
Speaker 2 (24:36):
Oh cool.
Speaker 1 (24:37):
This is interesting to talk about, honestly because you you
I think from a just uh from a standpoint of
watching someone expose their lives on television, you know, the
perception is is that one is doing that for some
sort of notoriety. But there's a there's another you know,
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there's another level to it. There's depth to it, you know,
especially for someone like you, family like you guys who
have been so exposed without consent.
Speaker 2 (25:08):
Yes, and so now it's it's your time.
Speaker 5 (25:11):
It's interesting that you bring up that word because and
I don't. I don't have any I can't speak to
other reality shows. I don't watch a lot of reality shows.
I'm tired, I go to bed. I don't like actually
do much.
Speaker 3 (25:22):
I'm very boring. Sometimes it was like turn off.
Speaker 5 (25:25):
But I so our show runners, Sarah Ready, when we
met in person for the first time, we sat on
the rug in my in my living room.
Speaker 3 (25:37):
She said, the most important word of the.
Speaker 5 (25:40):
Season is consent. And I didn't really, you know, understand
anything about reality job. And I was like, I don't
think that was the word that I would have gone
to at that word that is the most important word,
And she said yes, especially with the children, we always
ask consent before we film, so much so to the
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point where Raphai or eldest, he'll notice he's not in
it that much because we didn't have it like he
was like no, I mean I don't want you, or
he would leave, and it was just very much even
if they didn't want to actually say it, he would,
you know, just kind of have his own space. And
there's a tremendous sense of feeling people's energy on the
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set and he will watch it now and he's like,
why am I not in this?
Speaker 3 (26:25):
I'm like, because we had consent.
Speaker 2 (26:26):
And he was like, he's like, why am I not
at this point?
Speaker 3 (26:30):
And I was like, because that wasn't the place that
you were in right now, right at that point. But no,
it was very much.
Speaker 1 (26:35):
You know.
Speaker 5 (26:35):
One of the reasons that she told me that is
she said, when you want to get true, you don't
want to.
Speaker 3 (26:40):
Put somebody in fight or flight.
Speaker 5 (26:43):
You want to put them in a place calm and
then they can be authentic and share with you. And
so I think that that's why the show feels so authentic.
I think this is why this book is so authentic,
is because it's consent.
Speaker 3 (26:58):
It's I'm sharing with you, and I'm a very open person,
you know. I lunch. I love that. That's why I
love to teach yoga. You know.
Speaker 5 (27:05):
I get to meet a whole other person and we
get to share something together and maybe maybe your life
is going to get this much better. My life is
going to get this much better, even just our energy
is connecting. I love that, and so that's what I
want to continue on. You know, even though I don't
teach as much yoga anymore. I want to bring that
into all areas of my life. Mm hmm.
Speaker 1 (27:25):
I mean, did you know what you were signing up for?
You know, you fell in love and you just met
a man, and you know who's handsome and fun and
funny as shit by the way, and talented is all
get up.
Speaker 2 (27:37):
And then you're like, whoa shit, this is not what
I signed up for.
Speaker 5 (27:42):
Well, I mean, I don't think when I mean, I
don't know how people at home who are listening to
this field, but like I never thought with anyone I
was dating, like I'm signing up for XYZ right, like,
regardless of what their profession is.
Speaker 3 (27:58):
Like, I'm not like, oh, doing this is signing up
to be whatever.
Speaker 5 (28:00):
I mean, I think that politics has like a separate
thing over there, but every other profession I don't understand,
like thinking.
Speaker 3 (28:08):
You know, when you're starting to date somebody that you're signing.
Speaker 5 (28:10):
Up for something, but so no, And I also, you
know the reality show we just said okay, And I
do a lot of things without thinking them through sometimes,
which I think is you know, it's a little impulsive,
but it's also very spontaneous. Then you know, I'm here
to try things and stuff like that. So you know,
I mean, I was just trying it out. This wasn't
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like somebody came with a contract and was like, this
is what it's going to be.
Speaker 3 (28:37):
Also, you know, I.
Speaker 5 (28:38):
Grew up not watching TV, and I.
Speaker 3 (28:44):
I still don't really watch TV to.
Speaker 5 (28:46):
This day, and I think that therefore I wasn't really
aware as much of that world. Of course I knew
he was famous. Of course I didn't understand. I don't
think anyone cooked, but especially I think because I was
so far removed and I was just teaching yoga all
the time. Yeah, oh but I didn't. Yeah, I didn't
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really understand what people say, Oh, you sign up for it,
what comes with that? You know, you're asking for it?
All of these like really wonderful things to hear, and I'm.
Speaker 3 (29:16):
Like, no, I know, I didn't.
Speaker 1 (29:19):
How do you deal with that, like like the scrutiny,
you know what I mean, and the press and all
the shit that goes down. You know, you get calloused
to it, you know, you start to understand a little
bit better and it doesn't really affect you, or I'm
not speaking for you.
Speaker 2 (29:32):
I'm saying maybe generally, But.
Speaker 1 (29:34):
The first couple of times where you're like, I didn't
do anything, Like why are you? Why is everyone so angry?
I mean, how were you.
Speaker 2 (29:42):
Able to sort of deal with that?
Speaker 1 (29:44):
Did you have a natural capacity to sort of say, hey,
you know, what's screw it?
Speaker 3 (29:48):
No? I wish, I wish. I feel like sometimes I'm
developing that a little bit more.
Speaker 2 (29:53):
I think people did it hurt It was hurtful.
Speaker 3 (29:56):
It is hurtful.
Speaker 5 (29:57):
I mean, I'm somebody I'm like, hey, let's all, let's
all be together. Was like, be like happy and together,
Like why are we doing this? I would never do
this to anyone.
Speaker 3 (30:04):
Why are you going to do it to me?
Speaker 5 (30:07):
But I mean, I'm a pretty defiant person, and I
you know, I have I've been talking about recently. I
have ADHD, and I will like hyper focus on certain things,
and I'll like and I'm also extremely literal.
Speaker 1 (30:20):
Yeah, sorry interrupt. But we just had a guy, you know,
a doctor who is.
Speaker 3 (30:24):
Like a prominent now I saw we left him.
Speaker 2 (30:27):
Oh he's so great.
Speaker 1 (30:29):
And because because I didn't know, I've never been diagnosed
or anything, but it just feels like my brain is
a little weird and I'm a creative and and he
was explaining how a lot of creatives are just naturally
they have add ADHD.
Speaker 2 (30:42):
But the way he reframed it as a.
Speaker 1 (30:44):
Superpower and not something that's stabilitating, you know what I mean?
Speaker 3 (30:47):
Yeah, which I love because growing up it was not
a superpower.
Speaker 5 (30:51):
Yeah, you know, there was not anywhere near or one
of our kids is I diagnosed with ADHD. And and
it was only then and that I started realizing that this.
Speaker 3 (31:01):
Is a whole new world of I think, you know, information, understanding, celebration.
Speaker 5 (31:10):
I mean I don't want to, you know, it's there
are things that I know that me and many other
people I know who we're wired very similarly. It helps us,
you know, And it is being creative, it is being spontaneous.
Speaker 3 (31:25):
It's really thinking about things in a completely different way.
Speaker 5 (31:30):
There's a resilience because I think people sometimes who have
who struggle, you know, some of the best teachers that
you can have troubled so much in their life. People
things just come like this to them. I mean they're like,
why don't you get it too? But people who had
to like really figure it out and struggle and know
how hard it is come to conveying information to another
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person with real empathy.
Speaker 3 (31:52):
So no that I was very happy. I was. I
was doing my research before you had him on, and
I love him.
Speaker 2 (31:59):
Yeah, it was awesome.
Speaker 5 (32:01):
Yeah, the whole idea about putting glasses on, and that
is really really true, you know. And it's not you know,
just medication which works for some people and doesn't work
for other people.
Speaker 3 (32:12):
But it's just an understanding. You know, all go on tangents.
Speaker 5 (32:16):
And now that I can understand this stuff a little
bit better, I then will like catch myself going on
a tangent and I'll be like, okay.
Speaker 3 (32:24):
Bring it all over, plan the plane exactly.
Speaker 2 (32:31):
No, I know, I know, but it is.
Speaker 1 (32:32):
It is interesting what happens when you are able to
look at it as something positive, you know, even even
just that feeling and that thought, It just changes the
way that you feel and think immediately, yeah.
Speaker 5 (32:48):
Well it's feeling valuable rather than like the stupid one
in class.
Speaker 1 (32:52):
Yeah.
Speaker 2 (32:52):
And you also just give yourselves a little grace. You're
just like, oh wait, yeah.
Speaker 5 (32:56):
And then telling people, you know, I think being able
to to people like I Also, I also have dyslexia,
and I'm like, not a great reader.
Speaker 3 (33:06):
I've been read pretty well in my head. But then
I also realized.
Speaker 5 (33:09):
That I'm like switching things and I like think that
it means one thing and actually means the opposite because
I realized there was a note in there or something
that completely changes everything. But and I did the audio
book for my books, so you can imagine how yea
the veriest scariest things for me, and I like came
in like apologizing. I'm like, I just want you to
know that, like I'm not the best like alloud reader.
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And they were so lovely and they actually told me
that a lot of people in this field of you know,
I don't like to call myself a celebrity body in
like those that genre public figure books or whatever were books,
they actually also are very say a lot of them
have these little little differences that that I have. So
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so anyway, they were really like lovely in featient with
me and and but but yeah, I'm so grateful that
people are talking about it now.
Speaker 1 (34:00):
Oh yeah, we'll talk about the book, talk about the
inspiration behind it, you know how this all came about.
Speaker 5 (34:06):
So I I mean, I guess maybe maybe I'm learning.
I'm doing a therapy session right now, because you know,
I agreed to do.
Speaker 3 (34:16):
I know I'm going on a tangent noticing seeing.
Speaker 1 (34:18):
I love it, by the way, I'm a tangent motherfucker,
Like I go.
Speaker 3 (34:23):
That will be good.
Speaker 2 (34:24):
Yeah.
Speaker 3 (34:26):
The we agreed to do.
Speaker 5 (34:29):
The reality show without thinking about it, and we started
filming it two weeks before the trial started, which is
just like I look back and I'm like, like, I
didn't think it's what was thinking. I didn't really realize
the time frame until like it came time and I
was just like, oh my god.
Speaker 3 (34:46):
This was like what are we going to do now
that we not film the rest of it? If he
goes to jail? Like what am we supposed to do?
Speaker 5 (34:51):
Was really really so I actually started writing this book
right after, right after the trige happened.
Speaker 1 (35:01):
And I was there, I was I was shooting a
TV show in New Mexico.
Speaker 3 (35:07):
Really were you?
Speaker 2 (35:08):
Yeah?
Speaker 5 (35:08):
It was just an awful, tragic project time and I
but I think that, you know, this book helped me
very much get be a better person, parent, partner because
it was almost like a journal that I could be,
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that I could be doing, and it really started to connect.
It was just basically like thought vomit for years because
every I mean I had a baby during this you
know what I mean like there was like there was
this so much stuff happened during the course of writing
this book. And you know, I'm a because I'm a
very open person and very unfiltered. I I a lot
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of it was kind of you know, after the trial,
it really sat down and I it all came together
and I would do like ten pages a day, which
for me, somebody like made us a lot. And it
was that just like I know now what to say,
whereas I could put feeling, but these is I knew
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what to say in this in this time, or at
least I hope.
Speaker 3 (36:20):
I hope I said the right things.
Speaker 5 (36:23):
And I also think that, you know, leaning into you know,
my mi neurodivergence. It is written in very like little
you know, pieces, a little stories, and that helps me
as well, because I struggle sometimes with just connect doing
that seamless storytelling and connecting things where I can.
Speaker 3 (36:44):
Hear here here, here, here, that all works sense here.
Speaker 5 (36:48):
So it is written very much in in my.
Speaker 3 (36:53):
My voice because I wrote it in the way that I.
Speaker 5 (36:55):
Think as well the structure of it, and I hope
that I shared stories that feel, you know, even though
I've had extraordinarily unrelatable things happen to me in my life.
But I think that the themes are hopefully things that
you know, Yeah, I.
Speaker 2 (37:10):
Don't think that.
Speaker 1 (37:10):
I think that that sells yourself a little short as
far as unrelatable goes, because that's just I think there again,
there is a perception of someone who is in the
public eye, who does have you know, fortune, who does
have some fame, that they don't feel anything that they
don't have the same sort of you know, issues and
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hardships and afflictions that that everyone else has and and.
Speaker 2 (37:36):
So we're not allowed to talk about it. There's pain
in all.
Speaker 1 (37:39):
Of us, right, absolutely, there's relatability in all of our pain.
Speaker 5 (37:44):
You know, yes, yeah, no, And I'm a strong believer
that if whoever is listening is going to come into
it either wanting to see humanity or not.
Speaker 3 (37:57):
And then there you go.
Speaker 5 (37:58):
But I hope and I do think that you know,
whether it is silly parenting stories that I share, or
you know, issues that Alec and I have had in
our relationship, or tremendous tragedy.
Speaker 3 (38:14):
Or becoming a mother, you know, losing.
Speaker 5 (38:17):
Pregnancies, these are things that you know, everybody unfortunately knows
what it's like to experience a tragedy. There are are
our version of it might be different, but the overall,
you know, theme is tragedy. The overall theme is problems
in marriage overall theme. And I think the reason that
I wanted to share was because it's people sharing with
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me that helped me get through my hard times. You know,
I think when people come up to me and they'll
say something very kind, I always want to tell them,
you know, I'm so grateful for that, and I'm able
to do these things and you know, be this person
because other people have inspired me.
Speaker 1 (39:11):
The idea is, we're hearing all of your stories. We're
getting a little snapshort of your life. We're hearing it
in your voice, and you know, very digestible chunks.
Speaker 2 (39:22):
So it's not this reflowing sort of book.
Speaker 1 (39:26):
And it's basically the idea is is I thought that
I knew you have this idea of how to go
about something, but until you're in it, you really don't know.
Speaker 2 (39:41):
You know, there is no manual like you think that.
Speaker 1 (39:43):
There's an okay when I have kids, this is how
I'm going to feel when I get married, this is
how it's going to be, you know, and it's just
never what you think it is.
Speaker 5 (39:52):
Yeah, no, exactly, and being open and curious and self
forgiving of when you know when you get it wrong,
and you know, not beating myself up, feeling sometimes like
I let myself down, you know, I let somebody get
to me, and I'm like, oh.
Speaker 3 (40:08):
Told that myself.
Speaker 5 (40:09):
I would never let that happen again, you know, I mean,
these are this is is just a human but and
it's also you know the question that you asked me
before about, you know, was I prepared for any of
this what I was signing up for? And that's you know,
I really wanted nothing to do with this business.
Speaker 3 (40:29):
That now I very much enjoy.
Speaker 5 (40:31):
As much as we talk about the negative things, there's
so much amazing things about this business. There's so much
and I really.
Speaker 3 (40:37):
Am so grateful for it, and I've really enjoyed myself.
Speaker 5 (40:41):
But you know, there is you know, I was very
frightened of it at the beginning. I didn't really know
anything I was getting into. And I remember that I
was encouraged once we got I think that's when we're
getting engaged to do a piece with extra then that
I worked for for many years afterwards, because I became
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friendly with them, and they basically said, if you give
this story, then everybody will leave you alone. And that's
why I did the first thing. I was like, great,
I will do this and then everybody.
Speaker 3 (41:13):
Will just leave me alone. I can go back to
teaching yoga and that's it.
Speaker 5 (41:16):
Obviously that was not a true promise, and I also
leaned into it as well.
Speaker 3 (41:22):
I'd have to take responsibility for it, but it is.
I was my initial thing.
Speaker 5 (41:28):
And so you know, I look at this past fourteen
years plus that I've known Alec and a lot of
other people have been done doing the talking for me. Right,
you know, if they talk about you, they talk for you.
Sometimes it's true, sometimes it's not true. Sometimes it's positive,
sometimes it's not positive. Right, we have all of the things,
but the most important thing is that they're talking for me.
Speaker 3 (41:48):
And that's where I, you know, wanted to be.
Speaker 5 (41:51):
Like, you know what, I'm going to talk for myself.
So the book is I'm talking for myself. The show
is we're talking. That's my new I'm in my forties
now talking for myself.
Speaker 3 (41:59):
Thank you very much.
Speaker 2 (42:00):
I love that.
Speaker 1 (42:01):
And then moving forward forty and on, do you have
sort of goals or aspirations of sort of how you
want to shift it or live your life, you know
what I mean, Like you're done with having kids or
so you say, right, so that's done. You know what's new?
Like is there is there a piece of you when
you turn forty? We're like, you know what this is
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who I want.
Speaker 2 (42:23):
To be known.
Speaker 3 (42:23):
I feel like one of the gaps that people don't talk.
Speaker 5 (42:26):
About very much for women. I don't know how you
feel for men, but for women is we are kids.
We you know, get educated, We're going to go to college.
And again my generation can go to college. I know
that I'm very lucky in this way to have had
that as a dream that is achievable. And them we
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get married and I'm gonna have kids and then it's over. Yeah,
nobody talks about the afterpart. So that's what I'm like
in the age of discovery.
Speaker 3 (42:54):
You know that right now? And I feel that there's
lot of raising to be down with these children that
I have put in right so.
Speaker 5 (43:05):
We're in the raising face and I think, you know,
I think just in terms of feeling every single day,
I don't want to feel like the world is out
to get me, which has or out to get my
family which has been a dark thought that I've had
for a very long time.
Speaker 3 (43:25):
And as much as I try to be positive, and
that is my vulnerable state of just oh god, they're trying,
you know. You know, we'll have.
Speaker 5 (43:34):
People come up to us on the street and we're
just walking with a kid, and you know they're up
to no good and they just start streaming and like
you know, tabloid press, they're screaming stuff and they're just
trying to get a reaction, and you can go from
a sunny, beautiful day to all of a sudden they're
in your face. You weren't expecting it. Like I don't
want that anymore, and I know that I can't make
them go away. There's absolutely nothing, and I'm like they
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have a teacher. I'm like, don't you see my human
and the and they're like I don't care about but
it's very painful. But if I want to try to
lean more and more into just surrounding myself by like
really good and positive people, always remembering that even when
there's negativity, there's so much more positive people and so
much more kind people. And so I just have to
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lean into that more and more. And I'm the one
that has to trade that. You know, I can't expect
the world is going to do it for me.
Speaker 2 (44:21):
Because they're not exactly exactly.
Speaker 1 (44:24):
This is just a choice because there are things we
can control and things we can't. Obviously we you cannot
control anyone coming up to you, the way that they
feel about you, how they approach you and your family,
the disrespect, the invasion. You can't control that. The only
you control is how you react, how you react, how
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you bring that in. That's it, I mean, because the
answer is not being a homebody and just fucking staying
inside all day. That's not That's not who you are,
and that's not who we are as humans. We want
to get out, we want to experience. So it's just
about sort of making the choice.
Speaker 3 (45:02):
Yeah, no, it's very true, It's very true.
Speaker 1 (45:05):
One more question, what do you think the biggest sort
of misconception of you is? You know, because like you
just said it, people speak for you about you, and
then it builds a perception of you that is not
necessarily true. What would you say is the biggest misconception?
Speaker 5 (45:30):
I mean, I think if I were to look at
a twenty seven year old yoga instructor who was dating
a fifty three year old rich and famous man.
Speaker 3 (45:44):
What would I think? Right?
Speaker 5 (45:48):
And so anytime people think things about me, I try
to give them the empathy and the compassion of without
the experiences that I have.
Speaker 3 (46:00):
Yeah, what would I think about somebody in my shoes?
Speaker 2 (46:03):
Interesting?
Speaker 5 (46:05):
And so you know, I I have zero interest in
setting records straight.
Speaker 3 (46:12):
And then this and then that is like.
Speaker 5 (46:13):
Again, people are gonna see you, or they're not gonna
see They're gonna like you, They're not gonna like you,
They're gonna want to take you in, or they're.
Speaker 3 (46:18):
Not gonna take you in. But I think that, you know,
all I've wanted to do is belong and be who
I always am.
Speaker 5 (46:29):
And you know, I enjoyed so much and start teaching
yog at five o'clock in the morning and I finished
at ten thirty pm most days, and I worked three
hundred and sixty five days out of the year and
I loved it so much, And get paid thirty five
dollars a class, and I really, you know, enjoy just
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being there and helping people feel better.
Speaker 3 (46:54):
And that is something that it still guides me. You know.
Speaker 5 (46:59):
Again, I'm raised by I'm raised by My parents are
very hippie and I am very much a product of that.
Speaker 3 (47:07):
And so I mean, I just I guess, you know,
I think that.
Speaker 5 (47:12):
I have been brought into worlds that sometimes people want
to look at you as you're you know, conniving and
trying things. And you see it about other women who
start dating rich and famous men. I feel like it's
very a little different when it's a man coming in
dating a rich and famous woman, Right, it's a little different.
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There's a very specific thing. And I think it's these
fairy tales that we grow up with and you know,
the prince choosing one of them.
Speaker 3 (47:40):
And I think that.
Speaker 5 (47:40):
It's, you know, this idea that you know, women we
sometimes feel like, you know.
Speaker 3 (47:46):
Where it's it's a it's a well. You know. Sometimes
men can be like a well and we're like, okay,
we've got to get to the first to the well.
Speaker 5 (47:56):
And you know, I hope that more and more we
can establish you know, equal rights where we don't have
to compete or have feel competing with each other for something.
So I don't know, I try not to read too
much about other people's opinions because you know, but I
(48:16):
think that I try to understand what people say and
you know, if I encourage people to read the book.
Speaker 2 (48:25):
Yeah, read the book.
Speaker 1 (48:26):
And I also think that you make a great point,
you know what I mean, like the fact that you
can sort of put yourself in their shoes and understand
where they're coming from and what you might think given
the fact, given that you.
Speaker 2 (48:37):
Aren't who you are, right, I think that that's smart,
you know.
Speaker 1 (48:41):
I think that does bring on some empathy, and it's like,
you know, they might be wrong, they might have these
opinions that are built out of something that is bullshit,
but you know, maybe I would think the same thing.
Get to know me, understand who I am, you know,
and that's that's it. And there's nothing you can do
about it except be you.
Speaker 3 (48:56):
That's it exactly. And there's nothing else that I that
I want to do, you know, and I want my
kids to.
Speaker 2 (49:01):
Know how to do that.
Speaker 3 (49:03):
I'm just like what it is, you know.
Speaker 2 (49:06):
Yeah, and that's it.
Speaker 1 (49:07):
That's it, because the truth is, we don't have money
all that ship that we a true legacy, what we
truly leave behind. It's not award, it's not fame, it's
not money. It's our children. They're the ones who are
carrying us on. Essentially, you know what I mean. And
then our grandchildren and break grand I mean, we are
the legacy and if we need to give them, we
(49:30):
need to give them a piece of us, to impart
wisdom into them that they can take or not. Then
they will continue on.
Speaker 3 (49:38):
Yeah, Abs, absolutely well cool.
Speaker 2 (49:42):
This has been rather I appreciate you coming.
Speaker 3 (49:44):
On talking to appreciate your time.
Speaker 2 (49:47):
Be well, good luck with the book. Were good talking
to you all right.
Speaker 3 (49:50):
Thank you, bye, take care. Thank you.
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