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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Let's wrap this thing up Whennie, it is Friday. Hi, everybody,
Welcome to the after show, Justin and Winnie heading into
a long weekend. Whinnie, When I first started in radio,
when I first got on the air, I remember it
was Memorial Day weekend, and I said on the air,
Happy Memorial Day.
Speaker 2 (00:18):
Oh you're weird.
Speaker 1 (00:20):
Yeah, I just wasn't thinking.
Speaker 2 (00:21):
I didn't.
Speaker 1 (00:21):
I didn't know. I was a young buck. And the
boss came and he said, you know, it's in bad taste.
It's a day of remembrance, so we don't say happy.
There's nothing happy about it.
Speaker 3 (00:31):
Can I let you know that your time in the
radio world has nothing to do with common sense, sir correct?
Speaker 1 (00:37):
I agree.
Speaker 2 (00:39):
That's not radio, that's human head ache.
Speaker 1 (00:41):
I know. Well, we all make mistakes. So you know,
you can say hey, happy long weekend.
Speaker 2 (00:46):
Or you could say Memorial Day weekend.
Speaker 1 (00:49):
Yeah, it's a day of remembrance, is what it is
to all the people that sacrifice their lives for our country.
Speaker 2 (00:54):
Difference between Memorial Day and Labor Day, do you know?
Speaker 1 (00:57):
Oh well, well, obviously Memorial Day is a remembrance for
people that lost their lives or you know in war.
Labor Day has to do with work. It's a it's
a day off, right for labor? Is this a joke,
it's to give us a day off.
Speaker 3 (01:12):
No, it's for women that are go into labor. It's
to remind ourselves that women do so.
Speaker 2 (01:18):
Much to give birth.
Speaker 1 (01:20):
Did you make that up?
Speaker 3 (01:21):
No, because think about their laboring, and they're and they're
and they and they are giving birth to children.
Speaker 2 (01:26):
And it's to remind us how hard they work to
give birth.
Speaker 1 (01:30):
Okay, get get the fuck out of here. Oh you
almost had me there for a second. Oh my god.
Speaker 2 (01:36):
Wow.
Speaker 1 (01:36):
Well you know they should be celebrated. But no, it's
to celebrate the social and economic achievements of American workers.
So people that show up to work every day it's
a day off. Wow that was cold. Although, although let
me tell you, women out of the heroes of the world, Yeah,
they really are. I mean, look at the women. You know,
they have to give birth, carry a child for nine months,
(01:56):
You get a period, a menstrual sight where you bleed
every month. I mean, it's ridiculous. Go to my house.
My two kids want nothing to do with dad. They
want mom. They hang over mom all the time. Yeah,
you know, it's crazy. So Anyway, Happy Friday. Let's get
into it. Remember you can leave it at talkback for
the after show. That's the cool thing. You do it
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(02:17):
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Speaker 4 (02:23):
If you want to check in, Hi, justin. I know
it's not much, but today I'm celebrating one week sober.
I did it all by myself, alcohol free. I was
just wondering these power cover place I could go to
if I just wanted to go and talk to other people.
I don't have to be in a program there.
Speaker 1 (02:40):
Thank you first of all, congratulations one week one day
is incredible not drinking, so please keep going. I believe
in you. Whinny believe for you too. Thank you very much.
And yes, Power of Recovery, that's who I work with. Obviously,
it's a kind of an impatient day program. But they
have a ton of things that you can programs that
you can be a part of. So they have a
relapse prevention program. You can call and reserve your spot.
(03:04):
It's I think it's every Wednesday nights where you can Basically,
it's like a group therapy thing, so someone like you
that's a week sober can join the therapy and get
you know, talk to other people and exactly. So call
seven eight one six two nine four six oh nine
or go to Powerofrecovery dot org and sign up for
(03:24):
their relapse prevention program. That's a that's a good idea,
and they have other things too as well, so check
that out. We love that. We love talkbacks, I know
I love them.
Speaker 5 (03:32):
Yeah, I truly love listening to you guys, even though
I'm much older, and I especially love the honesty on
the after show. About writing the book, let me just
say I think you will find it very cathartic, justin,
and if you can do it in a way that
will help others, especially other families, get through it, it
(03:54):
will be a bestseller. Good luck.
Speaker 2 (03:57):
Love you guys.
Speaker 1 (03:58):
I love her. Yeah, thank you so much for the
kind words. I appreciate.
Speaker 2 (04:05):
You write a book that's like less than one hundred pages,
so I'll read it.
Speaker 1 (04:11):
It's got to be more than it's definitely going to
be more than one hundred. I've been thinking a lot
about it. I have to. There's a lot of work
that goes into it because I have to condense it, right,
because there's different erarors of my life, you know. I
mean I could do a whole book on the twelve
years that I was in heavy active addiction. I mean,
do you remember it?
Speaker 5 (04:29):
Though?
Speaker 1 (04:29):
I remember a lot of it. Yeah, you know, there
was a lot that I kind of is very fuzzy.
That's the thing, especially.
Speaker 2 (04:36):
When you're higher, because you're trying to not forget it.
Speaker 1 (04:39):
No, because I was high. Yeah, there was a definitely
a pill phase that lasted a couple of years where
I would take Benzo's. Do you know what those are? Klonipins, xanax,
benzo diazepines, that what they're called. They're kind of all
very similar. They're in the same family, but they're basically
a memory erasers, especially xanax. When you take it, you
literally black out, don't remember. And so I literally lost
(05:02):
months at a time because I would take pills every day.
I literally don't remember, Like what what?
Speaker 4 (05:08):
No?
Speaker 2 (05:08):
I always think.
Speaker 1 (05:12):
About this and this is so mind boggling. Okay, I
would love to know when I was out and about
whatever I was doing that I don't remember. What was
I like? Probably, like, what was I like? Okay. One
time I was I was living when I first moved
up away, I had relapsed, okay for a short time,
and I came to Malden and I picked up some drugs,
(05:34):
including pills, and I took them. And the last thing
I remember, I was at my grandmother's house and she said,
do you want something to eat? And I said yes,
blacked out. Don't remember that was at like one in
the afternoon on a Saturday. I think I woke up
on Sunday at noon back up where I was living. Okay,
I didn't ever call, so I had to have gotten
(05:56):
back to North Station from the Orange Line, got back.
Speaker 2 (05:59):
Oh wait, so you weren't sleeping the whole time you
were awake?
Speaker 1 (06:02):
Yes, and you have no idea what you did zero.
But here's the thing I had to in this blackout.
Get on the train of the Orange Line, go to
North Station, get to the Purple Line, take it to
newbury Port, and then take a taxi from from there
to the house. What was I like? Did I talk
to people?
Speaker 3 (06:22):
Right?
Speaker 1 (06:22):
I guess I have no idea. Probably yeah, you know,
but if I'm knotting out that bad, I would I
would think that somebody would I mean, I don't know,
it's very weird. Don't do pills, you know, but yeah,
so anyways, I would have to like condense it or whatever,
and then you have my whole life when I've been recovery.
Now I've been cleaned for sixteen years, almost seventeen years.
Speaker 2 (06:43):
And then you start with before before addiction.
Speaker 1 (06:46):
How it all began? Yeah, how it all began.
Speaker 2 (06:48):
Damn, It's gonna be like a fucking Harry Potter seven parter.
Speaker 1 (06:53):
Yeah. I think I have my opening though, so the
open winning is going to be. I think, yeah, it's
gonna start with my sit down with Maria Stefanos ah
and be like, Okay, here's how it ended. How did
it begin? Something like that, you know, because that was
a really like crazy point in my life. Yeah, but
then you have to go through my childhood and all
(07:14):
that stuff, you know. Like I always say that my
first drug of choice. See in recovery, when you get clean,
you know just what in recovery circles they say, what's
your drug of choice? Right? So for me, my first
drug of choice in my life was fantasy? What's that meaning?
When I was a kid, I was never comfortable in
my own skin and I always wanted to be somebody else.
(07:35):
I was always fantasizing about a better life or like
you know, I wanted to be this person. I wanted
to look like this, and then with the way I looked.
Speaker 2 (07:42):
Oh I thought at first I thought it was a
drug called fantasy.
Speaker 1 (07:45):
No no, no, no, it's just as a little kid,
I remember never being comfortable in my own skin, you know,
and that plays into once you pick up drugs and alcohol.
It gives you that confidence, right, and then you're like boom, bitch,
you know what I mean. But before that, I was
like a shell of a person. So I don't know
more to come on this. I'll think about it anyway.
Plans from the tomorrow day, weekend winnie umbrellas or what
(08:08):
I guess. Let me guess. Tonight dinner, yeah out and
about Saturday night, let me guess. Hold on, hold I
get this dinner out, and about we.
Speaker 2 (08:18):
Wanted to see sinners. We haven't gone to sinners.
Speaker 1 (08:21):
You haven't seen sinners.
Speaker 5 (08:21):
No.
Speaker 2 (08:22):
We said we're gonna go this weekend fantastic and then
I need to.
Speaker 1 (08:25):
Get a new bedframe, so we're gonna go for Oh,
I see, you've been busy over there with the new boyfriend.
Speaker 3 (08:30):
Okay, no, no, I've had it for eight years.
Speaker 1 (08:35):
Faster, faster, faster, Oh my god, oh my god, oh
my god. Okay, I'm just kidding.
Speaker 2 (08:41):
So I've had it for eight years. I guess the
first thing I bought was.
Speaker 1 (08:44):
All that thing's taking a beat.
Speaker 3 (08:45):
And when I moved out, and I've moved you know
how many times, six times, I think, And so I've
just had movers putting it apart and putting it together
like they don't give a fuck. No, So the slats
are off and I keep trying to, like, you know,
put them back in the right place, and it's just slot.
Speaker 2 (09:01):
It's just not. It's just not. You know, it's not good.
It's just not. And honestly, like I make enough money,
like I'm not rolling it.
Speaker 3 (09:10):
But I can't afford a couple of dollar bed frame,
like I'm not gonna like I'm I'm I'm in my
third and you have a.
Speaker 1 (09:14):
Good night's sleep, you know how you know you've become
an adult when you are happy about your new bed frame.
Speaker 3 (09:19):
Yeah, and I and I'm like, you know what, instead,
I kind of want a new mattress. But I'll get
to the bed frame first, pay that off, and then
I'll get go to the mattress next.
Speaker 2 (09:27):
Okay, I'm being responsible, all right, sounds good.
Speaker 3 (09:30):
But their friends are like one nine like I do.
Speaker 2 (09:34):
Think I'm not gonna get like a thousand dollar bed frame.
Speaker 1 (09:37):
You're gonna get just a wood one or with a
cushion on top, like in front of it, you know,
talking about some of them. Some of the bed frames.
Speaker 2 (09:43):
Oh you mean like a poster.
Speaker 3 (09:45):
Yeah, oh no, the ones I were looking I was
looking at are like just you know, would I guess
would or whatever, But I yeah.
Speaker 2 (09:53):
I just want a different one.
Speaker 1 (09:54):
Okay, we'll have a great memorial of the weekend. I'm
not doing anything. So there you go. I'm doing nothing,
literally nothing. Well, I have a it's the weather's gonna
be terrible my pool. You know, my luxury problem is
my pool. I just look at it. He's gonna be
too cold and rainy to swim. Okay, so you're doing
poor baby, right. So when's Chee Saturday night doing? I
(10:15):
don't know. I kind of wing it usually let my
wife decide what she wants. Yeah, so maybe Mexican or
pizza or something.
Speaker 3 (10:21):
I asked you something over on that is that a
guy thing that it's always just like asking your girl.
Speaker 1 (10:27):
What she wants yes, because when you ask, when you
try to make the decision on where to eat, no
matter what you pick, she doesn't want it.
Speaker 2 (10:33):
Okay.
Speaker 3 (10:34):
So last last weekend, me and him were like it
was like Sunday, like say, like five o'clock.
Speaker 2 (10:40):
So he's like, oh, you want to get food before
I go home?
Speaker 3 (10:42):
And I was like yeah, and he was like okay,
like what do you want? And I was like, I
don't know what you want me to cook or do
you want, like want to go out? And he was like, well,
whatever you want. And I was like okay, but I
well what.
Speaker 2 (10:51):
Do you want? He was like Winny, like just pick
and I was like, well, I don't know, like and then.
Speaker 3 (10:56):
We're just then we just we like got sidetracked and
then like it was like six o'clock and we still
picked food, and I'm like, I take the dog.
Speaker 2 (11:02):
He said, if you're hit the dog, I'll just walk
with you and I'll go home. I go, You're gonna
go home without eating? And he's like, well, I'll just
eat later, like and he's.
Speaker 3 (11:08):
Like, you haven't made a decision in an hour, Like
clearly you're not like that hungry or you don't.
Speaker 2 (11:13):
And I'm like yeah, but like I'm like, now you're
gonna eat. Now you're not even gonna eat with.
Speaker 3 (11:16):
Me, like and he was like, I will eat with
you if you decide where you want to eat. That's annoying, right,
And then I'm like and then at this point, it's
like six thirty said we don't end up going at food.
He leaves at like seven, and I got a fucking
mc chicken.
Speaker 1 (11:31):
That's funny you say that, because my response to that
was this has happened before when I say to her,
what do you want to eat? And she's pulled the
same thing. So what I say to her is when
she says, I don't know what do you want, I
go honestly, I don't care, Like I'll just go to
McDonald's and get something. And that spurs her to be
like no, no, no, no, I want this or I want
And then he text.
Speaker 2 (11:49):
Me when he got home and I'm like, oh, he thought,
oh what did you get? He think?
Speaker 4 (11:52):
What?
Speaker 2 (11:52):
Cause I was I walked out with him. I'm like,
I'm just gonna go with food now because I didn't
feel like cooking and he said, oh, get I don't know.
I don't know. I don't know what I'm gonna get.
I'm like to go with me, and he was like,
oh my god.
Speaker 1 (12:03):
He was he was like, I feel his pain.
Speaker 3 (12:05):
He's like, he's like, I've been here all week. I
need to go home and get ready for work. And
I was like, all right, fine, so I so I go.
I get my McDonald's whatever. He texted me like an
hour later, he's like, what did you get? And I
got I got a chicken and I'm like, what do
you get?
Speaker 2 (12:17):
Oh, I got a seak and cheese to go. That
sounds so good.
Speaker 3 (12:20):
And he's like, well, we could have done that if
you And I'm like, damn, I wish I had steak
and cheese.
Speaker 2 (12:24):
I learned my lesson now. I will never tell him
I don't know what I want.
Speaker 3 (12:27):
Yeah, I'm literally just gonna say anything that I send
I might want, yep, because if I tell him what
I want, he's like okay.
Speaker 2 (12:35):
Like he's so agreeable. I think most guys are.
Speaker 3 (12:37):
If you say like, okay, I want this, he's like Okay,
that's fine. But like when I don't give him an option,
he's like, all right, like, I'm not going to do
this with you for three hours.
Speaker 1 (12:44):
Yeah. The food thing and way to eat is a
big thing.
Speaker 2 (12:46):
Yeah.
Speaker 1 (12:47):
Well all right, well I hope you have some good
food this weekend. And no show on Monday. Yeah, so
no show, we're off, So we'll be back on Tuesday
as we wrap up May so have a great weekend everybody.
Speaker 2 (12:58):
Bye.